Idealistic Perfectionist

The Idealistic Perfectionist

Someone once remarked that I am too idealistic, which I discovered to be genuine after I did some soul searching during the night. I used to be a devout believer, one who put his quiet and yet resilient faith in this world, hoping that truth will always prevail and good will always triumph over evil. Values comprising courage, friendship, love and sincerity are inherent in every single human being or being instilled through daily experience and lessons. Instead, I stumbled upon the bricks of fear, prejudice, hatred and hypocrisy which pile up to form an inpenetrable barrier surrounding my heart.

I have seen people giving in to their fears by adopting passive behaviour;

I have seen people befriending others and expanding influence in order to achieve their own hidden agendas or whatever ulterior motives they might have;

I have seen people mistaking strong emotional dependence and irresponsible flirting through senseless bickering and mindless squabbling for love;

I have seen people pretending to be on friendly terms with one another on the surface while deep down they simply cannot wait to backstab the ones whom they had lunch with;

These logical reasoning brought me to this conclusion:

What I had believed in was nothing more than an illusion.

A life without a direction is like a ship sailing across the vicious waves in the midst of a raging thunderstorm on a dark and stormy night without the guidance of the lighthouse.

That's what I am. Lost. Trapped in the quicksand of time, the more I sacrifice to free myself out of this mess I only find myself sinking deeper into the abyss of darkness.

And where is the hand which is supposed to pull me out of this predicament?

Earning My Stripes

Earning My Stripes

I will be on my way to earn my stripes tomorrow. A new phrase of my army life. Where I can meet new people and see old friends again:) However, I still relish the chance to "upgrade" my stripes to a bar by crossing over...

Having Endless Nights because I fear Sleeping Murder...

End of Block Leave

End of Block Leave

Sometimes I just can't help but realise things can actually happen so quickly as my block leave is drawing to a close in a blink of an eye. Managed to catch a couple of soccer matches for Euro 2008 and I consider myself a fervent support of Portugal. It is a side with remarkable quality and mesmerising style of play. They did pretty well in the group stages to book a date with Germany in the quarter-finals but to my disappointment, they crashed out of the tournament in a match with a score of 2-3 to Germany yesterday. They were down by one goal in the dying minutes and yet they fought on till the very end and I admire them for that. The Germans earned a well deserved victory through their tactical play and should be able to go far in this tournament if they continue to play at this level...

Went for several outings such as cycling with octave at pasir ris, where I taught some of my grand juniors (juniors' juniors) how to cycle and it amazed me that I actually sweat more than my juniors who were learning to ride a bicycleXD Really glad to see that they are still so bonded and this is what makes octave and harmoc so special from the rest. And the usual singing sessions with NS and NJ buddies where I realised a worrying trend in my choice of songs=X Anyway this had been a short but exciting block leave, think NS actually teaches me how to cherish those who are around me, a kind of feeling which I already understand but is further reinforced by army life. Take care guys!(=

Posting Order

Posting Order


Your Posting Order is listed below:


1. You are posted to:

SISPEC.

(School of Infantry Specialists)

2. Your vocation is:

INF LDR.

(Infantry Leader)

It is to my pleasant surprise to know that my buddies are posted to SISPEC together with me(: Arh but my posting to SISPEC also suggests that there are more mountains for me to chiong and more forests for me to campXD Hope it will turn out to be a enriching and enjoyable experience!:)

Hey ya oh arh infantry arh, we are the men from Viper company arh!

Ideal Career

Ideal Career?

Your Career Type: Enterprising

You are energetic, ambitious, and sociable. Your talents lie in politics, leading people, and selling things or ideas. You would make an excellent: Auctioneer - Bank President - Camp Director City Manager - Judge - Lawyer Recreation Leader - Real Estate Agent - Sales Person School Principal - Travel Agent - TV Newscaster The worst career options for your are investigative careers, like mathematician or architect.

What's Your Ideal Career?

POP

POP

It's finally over!!! After 9 weeks of basic military training, I have completed my course at last and graduated from BMTC (Basic Military Training Centre) on 10th June!! Enjoy the pictures!!:)

Viper Warriors standing tall!

Can you spot my location?

With my Mom and Sis

Me, Yong Shun and Eugene---Best Brothers!!

Me and my buddy Jeremy with that pesky Yong Shun sneaking in from the side:p

Officer wannabes!

Sadistic Sergeant: Knock it down you "chao4" recruits!!

"V" is for Viper!

Me and Zhi Yuan aka Robot:P

Our commanders repaying their debts muahaha!

For Honour and Glory!

One arm push-up!

Strike at the enemy!

Thus this marks the end of my BMT, where I have had a most memorable experience and developed meaningful friendships:) Hope that my buddies and I can continue to see each other in command school! Remember to keep in touch guys!

There is a destiny that makes us brothers:

None goes his way alone:

All that we send into the lives of others

Comes back onto our own.

-Edwin Markham

Above All

Above All

Air Force. Above all.

Sounds pretty cool. That's exactly the reason why I signed up for a career in the Air Force as a pilot several weeks ago. Went for computer test and medical review ever since then and to my surprise, I was offered a contract to join the Air Force as a pilot. Very attractive terms and benefits indeed, but I chose to reject it in the end because I do not wish to be tied down by any bonds. My true passion still lies in Economics, where I shall graduate from SMU and carve out a career in Investment Banking:) Thus I can't afford to sign on and I really wonder how I got selected out of 200 over people in the first place=x That's a really hard decision to make, and I am glad I have done it in the end=)

Gonna POP soon!!! Feels great to have completed BMT and overcoming every obstacle ranging from IPPT to SOC, but the most important thing I have gained from my 9 weeks is true friendship and the close bond I share with my section mates:) I really feel that they can be buddies for life cause we can click well haha... What's even better is that we all expressed interest in going to Command School and thus there is a chance that we can still end up together=) Been busy rehearsing for Passing Out Parade lately and standing still under the hot sun can prove to be physically exhausting, but like what I always like to say, it's still mind over matter... I shall execute every drill to the best of my ability so that I deserve the honour of accepting the jockey cap from my parents on the actual day itself.

To my all friends out there: Get ready to address me as Private Tan! (Though I still prefer Officer Cadet Trainee Tan lol)