Irritated
I dun really like it when people around me doubt my judgement. It's like, hello, I have probably read more and know more than you do on that particular subject and who do you think you are to tell me on what I should do with my own money. It's not as if I ASKED you how to manage my money in the first place. Likewise there's no need for you to tell me anyway. Bleah.
The definition for 'fear of losing' has changed for me, I realised. In the past way back to my childhood days it meant the fear of failure to achieve what I desired, top scorer in class for instance. The significance of this term changed when I was a teenager, when I interpreted it as the fear of losing something intangible like relationships and memories for example.
Something like losing my friendships just because I am not physically there with my loved ones in universities or my buddies in different army camps. I felt mere mobile communication wasn't enough; or worse still, if there's no mobile contact at all. Maybe having friends isn't such a good idea after all, because I will lose them anyway. The statement "We meet to part" is often very true.
I am still trying to register the idea of a higher being who created us, who loves us for simply being who we are and one who sacrificed for us. It sounds too good to be true. I am wary of believing again, especially when things went horribly wrong, way beyond my comprehension.
The brightest light casts the darkest shadow...
Sunday, August 31, 2008
Friday, August 22, 2008
Approaching
Approaching
That day is approaching and there is nothing I can do to prevent it.
How I wish I could turn back time by just playing a piece of music, similar to what Jay Chou did in Secret.
So is it completely useless that I have learnt how to play that piece? I dun think so, at least I have found some comfort in music.
At least someone can provide more and make you happier than I do...
I believe the hardest thing to change in this world is the heart.
That day is approaching and there is nothing I can do to prevent it.
How I wish I could turn back time by just playing a piece of music, similar to what Jay Chou did in Secret.
So is it completely useless that I have learnt how to play that piece? I dun think so, at least I have found some comfort in music.
At least someone can provide more and make you happier than I do...
I believe the hardest thing to change in this world is the heart.
Sunday, August 17, 2008
I am _____.
I am _____.
Exciting event, and thanks to Darryl for bringing me there. The people there were so friendly and approachable:)
Under normal circumstances, people either like to seek pleasure or gain achievements, but one must understand that accomplishment of any of the things above can only bring temporary and not eternal satisfaction.
What is my purpose in life? Is there anything in this world worth living for? What will we do any of the things we value the most disappear from our lives? Is there anything that can stand the test of time?
I dunno, but I will never stop in seeking the truth...
Saturday, August 09, 2008
National Day
National Day
Singapore celebrates its 43th birthday today!!
As a young and able-bodied male who is currently serving National Service ever since 9th April, I have come to believe that today carries an extra special significance.
Why must I serve? The answer is simple. Because I want Singaporeans to be able to celebrate this day of every year; Sinagpore has come a long way to achieve the success which we enjoy today. And this wouldn't have been possible without an operationally ready force to protect the sovereignty and safeguard the dignity of our nation, our homeland.
During the university admission interview conducted by SMU earlier this year, one of the economics professor asked me if I would cross over to "greener pastures" should the opportunity arises. The other interviewees gave the "standard TYS" answers, citing the positive qualities of Singapore for instance good governance, clean environment and free from natural disasters.
To her question I simply replied, "Wherever I may go can never change the fact that I am from Singapore, and will always remain a Singaporean."
August 15th. The day when I shall wear my corporal rank. And wear it with pride. Ending this entry off with an entertaining video, so sit back and enjoy:)
Singapore celebrates its 43th birthday today!!
As a young and able-bodied male who is currently serving National Service ever since 9th April, I have come to believe that today carries an extra special significance.
Why must I serve? The answer is simple. Because I want Singaporeans to be able to celebrate this day of every year; Sinagpore has come a long way to achieve the success which we enjoy today. And this wouldn't have been possible without an operationally ready force to protect the sovereignty and safeguard the dignity of our nation, our homeland.
During the university admission interview conducted by SMU earlier this year, one of the economics professor asked me if I would cross over to "greener pastures" should the opportunity arises. The other interviewees gave the "standard TYS" answers, citing the positive qualities of Singapore for instance good governance, clean environment and free from natural disasters.
To her question I simply replied, "Wherever I may go can never change the fact that I am from Singapore, and will always remain a Singaporean."
August 15th. The day when I shall wear my corporal rank. And wear it with pride. Ending this entry off with an entertaining video, so sit back and enjoy:)
Saturday, August 02, 2008
Finally
Finally
Finally I can find some time for me to blog.
The previous weeks were the toughest times I experienced in my course so far. Before I continue, I would like to state that Echo company in SISPEC IS NOT SLACK AT ALL. There were countless times when I felt like giving up and wondered why am I here in the very first place. It is most fortunate that my section mates are most supportive and helpful, always showering me with words of encouragement. If it weren't for them, I have no idea how I could have overcome all these obstacles alone. Thanks guys!:)
Truthfully speaking, I was rather disappointed when I didn't make it to OCS when I received my posting order. However, things are different now. As time goes by, I realised that I am actually more suited to become a specialist instead. Interacting with people is one of the things I like to do and being a sergeant allows me to gain more opportunities to communicate and understand my men. This is what I want to and hope I can do. Moreover, to quote my staff sergeant: "Before you start thinking about becoming an officer, think whether you can be a good specialist first."
I agree with him completely.
Six months later, I finally mustered enough courage to read once again what was written on the letter. Only that this time round I managed to gain a deeper understanding of the true intention of the writer. My effort put in thinking through the nights in Pasir Laba camp, Mandai nature reserve and the forests of Pulau Tekong had finally paid off. I can see pieces of information falling nicely together to form a jigsaw puzzle. Alas, I really have no idea if any slightest trace of friendship can still be found in the aftermath of the moment of truth. The most painful emotion a person with pride can feel is shame. In any case, should the worst happen, I hope I will be mentally prepared to accept the consquences and shoulder the responsibilities.
Now that I have cleared the innermost doubt in my mind I can start preparations for achieving my dream:)
Finally I can find some time for me to blog.
The previous weeks were the toughest times I experienced in my course so far. Before I continue, I would like to state that Echo company in SISPEC IS NOT SLACK AT ALL. There were countless times when I felt like giving up and wondered why am I here in the very first place. It is most fortunate that my section mates are most supportive and helpful, always showering me with words of encouragement. If it weren't for them, I have no idea how I could have overcome all these obstacles alone. Thanks guys!:)
Truthfully speaking, I was rather disappointed when I didn't make it to OCS when I received my posting order. However, things are different now. As time goes by, I realised that I am actually more suited to become a specialist instead. Interacting with people is one of the things I like to do and being a sergeant allows me to gain more opportunities to communicate and understand my men. This is what I want to and hope I can do. Moreover, to quote my staff sergeant: "Before you start thinking about becoming an officer, think whether you can be a good specialist first."
I agree with him completely.
Six months later, I finally mustered enough courage to read once again what was written on the letter. Only that this time round I managed to gain a deeper understanding of the true intention of the writer. My effort put in thinking through the nights in Pasir Laba camp, Mandai nature reserve and the forests of Pulau Tekong had finally paid off. I can see pieces of information falling nicely together to form a jigsaw puzzle. Alas, I really have no idea if any slightest trace of friendship can still be found in the aftermath of the moment of truth. The most painful emotion a person with pride can feel is shame. In any case, should the worst happen, I hope I will be mentally prepared to accept the consquences and shoulder the responsibilities.
Now that I have cleared the innermost doubt in my mind I can start preparations for achieving my dream:)
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