Finally

Finally

Finally I can find some time for me to blog.

The previous weeks were the toughest times I experienced in my course so far. Before I continue, I would like to state that Echo company in SISPEC IS NOT SLACK AT ALL. There were countless times when I felt like giving up and wondered why am I here in the very first place. It is most fortunate that my section mates are most supportive and helpful, always showering me with words of encouragement. If it weren't for them, I have no idea how I could have overcome all these obstacles alone. Thanks guys!:)

Truthfully speaking, I was rather disappointed when I didn't make it to OCS when I received my posting order. However, things are different now. As time goes by, I realised that I am actually more suited to become a specialist instead. Interacting with people is one of the things I like to do and being a sergeant allows me to gain more opportunities to communicate and understand my men. This is what I want to and hope I can do. Moreover, to quote my staff sergeant: "Before you start thinking about becoming an officer, think whether you can be a good specialist first."
I agree with him completely.

Six months later, I finally mustered enough courage to read once again what was written on the letter. Only that this time round I managed to gain a deeper understanding of the true intention of the writer. My effort put in thinking through the nights in Pasir Laba camp, Mandai nature reserve and the forests of Pulau Tekong had finally paid off. I can see pieces of information falling nicely together to form a jigsaw puzzle. Alas, I really have no idea if any slightest trace of friendship can still be found in the aftermath of the moment of truth. The most painful emotion a person with pride can feel is shame. In any case, should the worst happen, I hope I will be mentally prepared to accept the consquences and shoulder the responsibilities.

Now that I have cleared the innermost doubt in my mind I can start preparations for achieving my dream:)