Finally
Finally I can find some time for me to blog.
The previous weeks were the toughest times I experienced in my course so far. Before I continue, I would like to state that Echo company in SISPEC IS NOT SLACK AT ALL. There were countless times when I felt like giving up and wondered why am I here in the very first place. It is most fortunate that my section mates are most supportive and helpful, always showering me with words of encouragement. If it weren't for them, I have no idea how I could have overcome all these obstacles alone. Thanks guys!:)
Truthfully speaking, I was rather disappointed when I didn't make it to OCS when I received my posting order. However, things are different now. As time goes by, I realised that I am actually more suited to become a specialist instead. Interacting with people is one of the things I like to do and being a sergeant allows me to gain more opportunities to communicate and understand my men. This is what I want to and hope I can do. Moreover, to quote my staff sergeant: "Before you start thinking about becoming an officer, think whether you can be a good specialist first."
I agree with him completely.
Six months later, I finally mustered enough courage to read once again what was written on the letter. Only that this time round I managed to gain a deeper understanding of the true intention of the writer. My effort put in thinking through the nights in Pasir Laba camp, Mandai nature reserve and the forests of Pulau Tekong had finally paid off. I can see pieces of information falling nicely together to form a jigsaw puzzle. Alas, I really have no idea if any slightest trace of friendship can still be found in the aftermath of the moment of truth. The most painful emotion a person with pride can feel is shame. In any case, should the worst happen, I hope I will be mentally prepared to accept the consquences and shoulder the responsibilities.
Now that I have cleared the innermost doubt in my mind I can start preparations for achieving my dream:)
Saturday, August 02, 2008
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Idealistic Perfectionist
The Idealistic Perfectionist
Someone once remarked that I am too idealistic, which I discovered to be genuine after I did some soul searching during the night. I used to be a devout believer, one who put his quiet and yet resilient faith in this world, hoping that truth will always prevail and good will always triumph over evil. Values comprising courage, friendship, love and sincerity are inherent in every single human being or being instilled through daily experience and lessons. Instead, I stumbled upon the bricks of fear, prejudice, hatred and hypocrisy which pile up to form an inpenetrable barrier surrounding my heart.
I have seen people giving in to their fears by adopting passive behaviour;
I have seen people befriending others and expanding influence in order to achieve their own hidden agendas or whatever ulterior motives they might have;
I have seen people mistaking strong emotional dependence and irresponsible flirting through senseless bickering and mindless squabbling for love;
I have seen people pretending to be on friendly terms with one another on the surface while deep down they simply cannot wait to backstab the ones whom they had lunch with;
These logical reasoning brought me to this conclusion:
What I had believed in was nothing more than an illusion.
A life without a direction is like a ship sailing across the vicious waves in the midst of a raging thunderstorm on a dark and stormy night without the guidance of the lighthouse.
That's what I am. Lost. Trapped in the quicksand of time, the more I sacrifice to free myself out of this mess I only find myself sinking deeper into the abyss of darkness.
And where is the hand which is supposed to pull me out of this predicament?
Someone once remarked that I am too idealistic, which I discovered to be genuine after I did some soul searching during the night. I used to be a devout believer, one who put his quiet and yet resilient faith in this world, hoping that truth will always prevail and good will always triumph over evil. Values comprising courage, friendship, love and sincerity are inherent in every single human being or being instilled through daily experience and lessons. Instead, I stumbled upon the bricks of fear, prejudice, hatred and hypocrisy which pile up to form an inpenetrable barrier surrounding my heart.
I have seen people giving in to their fears by adopting passive behaviour;
I have seen people befriending others and expanding influence in order to achieve their own hidden agendas or whatever ulterior motives they might have;
I have seen people mistaking strong emotional dependence and irresponsible flirting through senseless bickering and mindless squabbling for love;
I have seen people pretending to be on friendly terms with one another on the surface while deep down they simply cannot wait to backstab the ones whom they had lunch with;
These logical reasoning brought me to this conclusion:
What I had believed in was nothing more than an illusion.
A life without a direction is like a ship sailing across the vicious waves in the midst of a raging thunderstorm on a dark and stormy night without the guidance of the lighthouse.
That's what I am. Lost. Trapped in the quicksand of time, the more I sacrifice to free myself out of this mess I only find myself sinking deeper into the abyss of darkness.
And where is the hand which is supposed to pull me out of this predicament?
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Earning My Stripes
Earning My Stripes
I will be on my way to earn my stripes tomorrow. A new phrase of my army life. Where I can meet new people and see old friends again:) However, I still relish the chance to "upgrade" my stripes to a bar by crossing over...
Having Endless Nights because I fear Sleeping Murder...
I will be on my way to earn my stripes tomorrow. A new phrase of my army life. Where I can meet new people and see old friends again:) However, I still relish the chance to "upgrade" my stripes to a bar by crossing over...
Having Endless Nights because I fear Sleeping Murder...
Saturday, June 21, 2008
End of Block Leave
End of Block Leave
Sometimes I just can't help but realise things can actually happen so quickly as my block leave is drawing to a close in a blink of an eye. Managed to catch a couple of soccer matches for Euro 2008 and I consider myself a fervent support of Portugal. It is a side with remarkable quality and mesmerising style of play. They did pretty well in the group stages to book a date with Germany in the quarter-finals but to my disappointment, they crashed out of the tournament in a match with a score of 2-3 to Germany yesterday. They were down by one goal in the dying minutes and yet they fought on till the very end and I admire them for that. The Germans earned a well deserved victory through their tactical play and should be able to go far in this tournament if they continue to play at this level...
Went for several outings such as cycling with octave at pasir ris, where I taught some of my grand juniors (juniors' juniors) how to cycle and it amazed me that I actually sweat more than my juniors who were learning to ride a bicycleXD Really glad to see that they are still so bonded and this is what makes octave and harmoc so special from the rest. And the usual singing sessions with NS and NJ buddies where I realised a worrying trend in my choice of songs=X Anyway this had been a short but exciting block leave, think NS actually teaches me how to cherish those who are around me, a kind of feeling which I already understand but is further reinforced by army life. Take care guys!(=
Friday, June 20, 2008
Posting Order
Posting Order
Your Posting Order is listed below:
1. You are posted to:
2. Your vocation is:
Your Posting Order is listed below:
1. You are posted to:
SISPEC.
(School of Infantry Specialists)
2. Your vocation is:
INF LDR.
(Infantry Leader)
It is to my pleasant surprise to know that my buddies are posted to SISPEC together with me(: Arh but my posting to SISPEC also suggests that there are more mountains for me to chiong and more forests for me to campXD Hope it will turn out to be a enriching and enjoyable experience!:)
Hey ya oh arh infantry arh, we are the men from Viper company arh!
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Ideal Career
Ideal Career?
Your Career Type: Enterprising |
 You are energetic, ambitious, and sociable. Your talents lie in politics, leading people, and selling things or ideas. You would make an excellent: Auctioneer - Bank President - Camp Director City Manager - Judge - Lawyer Recreation Leader - Real Estate Agent - Sales Person School Principal - Travel Agent - TV Newscaster The worst career options for your are investigative careers, like mathematician or architect. |
Thursday, June 12, 2008
POP
POP
It's finally over!!! After 9 weeks of basic military training, I have completed my course at last and graduated from BMTC (Basic Military Training Centre) on 10th June!! Enjoy the pictures!!:)
Viper Warriors standing tall!
Can you spot my location?
With my Mom and Sis
Me, Yong Shun and Eugene---Best Brothers!!
Me and my buddy Jeremy with that pesky Yong Shun sneaking in from the side:p
Officer wannabes!
Sadistic Sergeant: Knock it down you "chao4" recruits!!
"V" is for Viper!
Me and Zhi Yuan aka Robot:P
Our commanders repaying their debts muahaha!
For Honour and Glory!
One arm push-up!
Strike at the enemy!
Thus this marks the end of my BMT, where I have had a most memorable experience and developed meaningful friendships:) Hope that my buddies and I can continue to see each other in command school! Remember to keep in touch guys!
There is a destiny that makes us brothers:
None goes his way alone:
All that we send into the lives of others
Comes back onto our own.
-Edwin Markham
Saturday, June 07, 2008
Above All
Above All
Air Force. Above all.
Sounds pretty cool. That's exactly the reason why I signed up for a career in the Air Force as a pilot several weeks ago. Went for computer test and medical review ever since then and to my surprise, I was offered a contract to join the Air Force as a pilot. Very attractive terms and benefits indeed, but I chose to reject it in the end because I do not wish to be tied down by any bonds. My true passion still lies in Economics, where I shall graduate from SMU and carve out a career in Investment Banking:) Thus I can't afford to sign on and I really wonder how I got selected out of 200 over people in the first place=x That's a really hard decision to make, and I am glad I have done it in the end=)
Gonna POP soon!!! Feels great to have completed BMT and overcoming every obstacle ranging from IPPT to SOC, but the most important thing I have gained from my 9 weeks is true friendship and the close bond I share with my section mates:) I really feel that they can be buddies for life cause we can click well haha... What's even better is that we all expressed interest in going to Command School and thus there is a chance that we can still end up together=) Been busy rehearsing for Passing Out Parade lately and standing still under the hot sun can prove to be physically exhausting, but like what I always like to say, it's still mind over matter... I shall execute every drill to the best of my ability so that I deserve the honour of accepting the jockey cap from my parents on the actual day itself.
To my all friends out there: Get ready to address me as Private Tan! (Though I still prefer Officer Cadet Trainee Tan lol)
Air Force. Above all.
Sounds pretty cool. That's exactly the reason why I signed up for a career in the Air Force as a pilot several weeks ago. Went for computer test and medical review ever since then and to my surprise, I was offered a contract to join the Air Force as a pilot. Very attractive terms and benefits indeed, but I chose to reject it in the end because I do not wish to be tied down by any bonds. My true passion still lies in Economics, where I shall graduate from SMU and carve out a career in Investment Banking:) Thus I can't afford to sign on and I really wonder how I got selected out of 200 over people in the first place=x That's a really hard decision to make, and I am glad I have done it in the end=)
Gonna POP soon!!! Feels great to have completed BMT and overcoming every obstacle ranging from IPPT to SOC, but the most important thing I have gained from my 9 weeks is true friendship and the close bond I share with my section mates:) I really feel that they can be buddies for life cause we can click well haha... What's even better is that we all expressed interest in going to Command School and thus there is a chance that we can still end up together=) Been busy rehearsing for Passing Out Parade lately and standing still under the hot sun can prove to be physically exhausting, but like what I always like to say, it's still mind over matter... I shall execute every drill to the best of my ability so that I deserve the honour of accepting the jockey cap from my parents on the actual day itself.
To my all friends out there: Get ready to address me as Private Tan! (Though I still prefer Officer Cadet Trainee Tan lol)
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Defining Limits
Defining Limits
I never considered myself a fast runner, my 2.4 km run timing has always stayed above the 11 minute mark. My previous 2.4 km timing during the first IPPT was 11:01, which I thought I have reached my limit already. However, I managed to break my 11 minute barrier by achieving a timing of 9:38 (gold timing being 9:44 and below) and this gave me a great sense of satisfaction:)
There is a lesson to be learnt from this incident, I realised.
I learnt that while there is a limit to the physical strength of an individual, the power of the mind is infinite. There were times I really felt like giving up during the run but my mind simply refused to yield. Maybe my willpower has been honed by the harshness of the environment in NS.
Passing IPPT allows me to qualify for command school and the fact that my entire section passed IPPT brought me even more joy:)
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Update
Update
Strange name for a blog entry title, but I dun really feel like thinking of one=X
That's it. I have made the decision. I shall express interest in going to command school. Preferably OCS (Officer Cadet School) but also alright with SISPEC (School of Infantry Specialists) ; where I will become an officer or sergeant upon graduation. Some people choose to aim for command school because of the salary or prestige, however none of these is my main motivation for commandership. My reason is simple. Being a commander allows me to contribute and serve the country to the best of my ability; the very thought of protecting my loved ones gives me the strength to carry on even under extremely difficult conditions. People are always more than ready to take the easy way out: Become men in a slack vocation and "geng" (feign illness) to pass the 2 years. I have nothing against that, it's just that I desire to achieve the best I can in whatever I do:)
Furthermore, I have decided to accept the offer by SMU School of Economics. Wanted to obtain a business degree initially as it will increase my employability but I decided I want to do something I really like. Thinking of getting a MBA in NUS upon graduation before trying for the Big Four or any other famous financial institution in Singapore. Missed the Tea with the Dean session at SMU today due to late book out:( Gotta ask my friend for the details of the session when I book in tomorrow. I can't help but feeling excited to know that there is a possibility we might become classmates in university:)
Oh yeah, the pilot computer test was kind of fun. Certain sections of the test were like arcade games and others required INTENSE levels of concentration and EXTREME levels of multi-tasking skill=X Still gotta go for a pilot medical checkup this coming week and MP selection test. Many things are happening lately and I just realised that POP (Passing Out Parade) is only about 2 weeks away... Experiencing a range of emotions right now; both happiness and sorrow... Happy in the sense that I am about to complete BMT (Basic Military Training) and sad because I am going to be separated from my buddies... Gonna put in my best effort for marching and footdrills so that my parents can see me march smartly on the Parade Square on June 10:) Shucks, Harmoc concert on June 9 so its impossible for me to go... Comments from my platoon mates about NJ Harmoc always never fail to brighten up my day:) But I never tell them about myself though, except the fact that I was from Harmoc in NJ. Nothing more than that, because I value truthful and honest remarks...
All I wanna do is find my way into honour and glory=)
Strange name for a blog entry title, but I dun really feel like thinking of one=X
That's it. I have made the decision. I shall express interest in going to command school. Preferably OCS (Officer Cadet School) but also alright with SISPEC (School of Infantry Specialists) ; where I will become an officer or sergeant upon graduation. Some people choose to aim for command school because of the salary or prestige, however none of these is my main motivation for commandership. My reason is simple. Being a commander allows me to contribute and serve the country to the best of my ability; the very thought of protecting my loved ones gives me the strength to carry on even under extremely difficult conditions. People are always more than ready to take the easy way out: Become men in a slack vocation and "geng" (feign illness) to pass the 2 years. I have nothing against that, it's just that I desire to achieve the best I can in whatever I do:)
Furthermore, I have decided to accept the offer by SMU School of Economics. Wanted to obtain a business degree initially as it will increase my employability but I decided I want to do something I really like. Thinking of getting a MBA in NUS upon graduation before trying for the Big Four or any other famous financial institution in Singapore. Missed the Tea with the Dean session at SMU today due to late book out:( Gotta ask my friend for the details of the session when I book in tomorrow. I can't help but feeling excited to know that there is a possibility we might become classmates in university:)
Oh yeah, the pilot computer test was kind of fun. Certain sections of the test were like arcade games and others required INTENSE levels of concentration and EXTREME levels of multi-tasking skill=X Still gotta go for a pilot medical checkup this coming week and MP selection test. Many things are happening lately and I just realised that POP (Passing Out Parade) is only about 2 weeks away... Experiencing a range of emotions right now; both happiness and sorrow... Happy in the sense that I am about to complete BMT (Basic Military Training) and sad because I am going to be separated from my buddies... Gonna put in my best effort for marching and footdrills so that my parents can see me march smartly on the Parade Square on June 10:) Shucks, Harmoc concert on June 9 so its impossible for me to go... Comments from my platoon mates about NJ Harmoc always never fail to brighten up my day:) But I never tell them about myself though, except the fact that I was from Harmoc in NJ. Nothing more than that, because I value truthful and honest remarks...
All I wanna do is find my way into honour and glory=)
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Decision Making
Decision Making
Well I guess the entry title says it all. Many tough decisions to be made, some in a week's time and some in a month's time. Both as a soldier and as a civilian.
As a civilian:
Got accepted for NTU Business and SMU Economics.
Difficult to make a choice, since NTU business school is no doubt the most established and experienced in Singapore and the region; while SMU school of economics boasts of providing an education modelled after top universities in the US. Furthermore, I am still waiting for a reply from NUS for Business. An additional choice may be available once I get accepted again and more headache too=X
As a soldier:
Signed up for pilot during Air Force recruitment talk and they asked me to sit for some computer test. Dun really understand why I am chosen instead of my other friends who are fitter than me. In addition there is also a Military Police (MP) interview next week, not sure how I got shortlisted when I never even express any interest in it before=S Sounds quite fun though, wonder if I will get to wear the police uniform, that would be extremely cool man...
Hmm guess I will need a few days to think it through... Sounds a bit random, but I have had the happiest dream in my life so far during last night... Cant really remember the details but I roughly get the whole picture... Though its realistically impossible for me to fulfil that wonderful dream, I am contented for being able to experience it... Sometimes I really like dreams because they can fill up the gaps which make reality incomplete... Maybe certain things can only exist and survive in dreams and not in reality... Sounds like some 'chim' theory, but it is actually very simple... I know I am not supposed to and shouldn't dream by this point of time but sometimes I really can't help it... There are some things you can't change instantly, it takes time, and for me it seems like an eternity... Sorry to my readers if you all dun understand what I am talking about, you all dun have to understand so dun worry... I just need to talk to someone or something (like this blog) to express how I feel and I dun wish to bother my friends with my unimportant concerns. I like blogging in this particular manner because I feel relieved and better after that (at least for the moment). Okay think I am really spouting some senseless nonsense here already so might as well stop here before I confuse my friends and readers even further...
Well I guess the entry title says it all. Many tough decisions to be made, some in a week's time and some in a month's time. Both as a soldier and as a civilian.
As a civilian:
Got accepted for NTU Business and SMU Economics.
Difficult to make a choice, since NTU business school is no doubt the most established and experienced in Singapore and the region; while SMU school of economics boasts of providing an education modelled after top universities in the US. Furthermore, I am still waiting for a reply from NUS for Business. An additional choice may be available once I get accepted again and more headache too=X
As a soldier:
Signed up for pilot during Air Force recruitment talk and they asked me to sit for some computer test. Dun really understand why I am chosen instead of my other friends who are fitter than me. In addition there is also a Military Police (MP) interview next week, not sure how I got shortlisted when I never even express any interest in it before=S Sounds quite fun though, wonder if I will get to wear the police uniform, that would be extremely cool man...
Hmm guess I will need a few days to think it through... Sounds a bit random, but I have had the happiest dream in my life so far during last night... Cant really remember the details but I roughly get the whole picture... Though its realistically impossible for me to fulfil that wonderful dream, I am contented for being able to experience it... Sometimes I really like dreams because they can fill up the gaps which make reality incomplete... Maybe certain things can only exist and survive in dreams and not in reality... Sounds like some 'chim' theory, but it is actually very simple... I know I am not supposed to and shouldn't dream by this point of time but sometimes I really can't help it... There are some things you can't change instantly, it takes time, and for me it seems like an eternity... Sorry to my readers if you all dun understand what I am talking about, you all dun have to understand so dun worry... I just need to talk to someone or something (like this blog) to express how I feel and I dun wish to bother my friends with my unimportant concerns. I like blogging in this particular manner because I feel relieved and better after that (at least for the moment). Okay think I am really spouting some senseless nonsense here already so might as well stop here before I confuse my friends and readers even further...
Sunday, May 04, 2008
College Day
College Day
Attended NJC 39th College Day as an award recipient yesterday... Maybe its because of army, I made the effort to reach NJ before 4.15pm in order to attend the briefing on time by taking a cab and only to realise that it didn't matter whether I was punctual or not=X The briefing was merely attendance taking and following the instructions written on the sheet of paper... Never mind about that anyway...
Saw some people I know but they couldn't recognise me. Do I really look different when I am botak? Perhaps so. I usually like to walk around the school premises whenever I get the chance to visit my former school, recalling past memories and savouring the sweet moments I have had in there. I felt something when I visited RVPS, I felt something when I went Cat High, but sadly I was emotionless when I walked around NJ. Maybe I did feel a bit different whenever I walked past LT3, where I used to conduct harmoc practices, but nothing more than that.
Still remembered what Liyan messaged me: Enjoy the moment of fame when you received the award on stage. To tell the truth, the medal and certificate mean nothing to me at all. I know that many years down the road some people will remember me or some will just simply forget me, but for those who do; I would like to be remembered NOT as the president who led the band to attain the Gold with Honours, but rather the one whom went through all the shit and did his best for everyone. If people remember me for my achievements, I would rather they forget me like how they forget to complete their Math tutorials.
Alright, gotta book in soon, so I gonna stop here again...
Attended NJC 39th College Day as an award recipient yesterday... Maybe its because of army, I made the effort to reach NJ before 4.15pm in order to attend the briefing on time by taking a cab and only to realise that it didn't matter whether I was punctual or not=X The briefing was merely attendance taking and following the instructions written on the sheet of paper... Never mind about that anyway...
Saw some people I know but they couldn't recognise me. Do I really look different when I am botak? Perhaps so. I usually like to walk around the school premises whenever I get the chance to visit my former school, recalling past memories and savouring the sweet moments I have had in there. I felt something when I visited RVPS, I felt something when I went Cat High, but sadly I was emotionless when I walked around NJ. Maybe I did feel a bit different whenever I walked past LT3, where I used to conduct harmoc practices, but nothing more than that.
Still remembered what Liyan messaged me: Enjoy the moment of fame when you received the award on stage. To tell the truth, the medal and certificate mean nothing to me at all. I know that many years down the road some people will remember me or some will just simply forget me, but for those who do; I would like to be remembered NOT as the president who led the band to attain the Gold with Honours, but rather the one whom went through all the shit and did his best for everyone. If people remember me for my achievements, I would rather they forget me like how they forget to complete their Math tutorials.
Alright, gotta book in soon, so I gonna stop here again...
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Let Freedom Ring
Let Freedom Ring
Confinement's over!!! Woah it was pretty unbearable for me, cause its my first time I am away from home for such a long period of time... Days sure crawled slowly in Tekong...
Read Alvin's blog several minutes ago and I felt quite touched, I never knew I was considered part of his 'true friends' gang together with ade and shi jun... Yup I agree with his 'frequency theory', I find it easy to connect with people who possess the same thinking as me..
During my days in Tekong I missed alot of people, especially my family, buddies and harmoc ppl... I wasn't that upset over all the physical training and lack of personal freedom in there, in fact I enjoyed the morning runs cause it helped to freshen me up:)
"Why must we serve? Why must we serve?"
"Because we love our land, and we want it to be free, to be free, YA!"
Confinement's over!!! Woah it was pretty unbearable for me, cause its my first time I am away from home for such a long period of time... Days sure crawled slowly in Tekong...
Read Alvin's blog several minutes ago and I felt quite touched, I never knew I was considered part of his 'true friends' gang together with ade and shi jun... Yup I agree with his 'frequency theory', I find it easy to connect with people who possess the same thinking as me..
During my days in Tekong I missed alot of people, especially my family, buddies and harmoc ppl... I wasn't that upset over all the physical training and lack of personal freedom in there, in fact I enjoyed the morning runs cause it helped to freshen me up:)
"Why must we serve? Why must we serve?"
"Because we love our land, and we want it to be free, to be free, YA!"
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
NS Enlistment
NS Enlistment
Tomorrow's the day...
Nope, its not freaking me out like what it did to others...
Somehow, I actually look forward to it...
Cause its a great opportunity for me to experience and learn new things...
To grow both physically and psychologically...
To forge meaningful and everlasting friendships...
Many thanks to friends who accompanied me during the past few days...
And I promise myself I will make the most out of it.
Tomorrow's the day...
Nope, its not freaking me out like what it did to others...
Somehow, I actually look forward to it...
Cause its a great opportunity for me to experience and learn new things...
To grow both physically and psychologically...
To forge meaningful and everlasting friendships...
Many thanks to friends who accompanied me during the past few days...
And I promise myself I will make the most out of it.
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
Blue or Red?
Blue or Red?
Your Vote Score: 20% Republican, 80% Democrat |
 You fit well with the Democrat party, and you should almost definitely vote Democrat this election. In fact, you're so strongly Democrat, a political career (or at least some activism )may be in your future. |
Sunday, March 30, 2008
SMU Interview
SMU Interview
Hmm I shall blog about smu interview... Intriguing questions were raised and I thought I crapped my way through it, like how I bluffed my way through my PW=x But think that the judges were much more intelligent to be fooled by my 'interesting' answers argh... However I guess the highlight of the interview was the fierce debate between me and the other candidate over a subject which most young people are probably pretty apathetic about---Politics. Enjoyed this kind of intellectual exchange rather than senseless gossiping which only serve to poison relations along different individuals...
Feelings? Hope for the best, but expect the worst...
Hmm I shall blog about smu interview... Intriguing questions were raised and I thought I crapped my way through it, like how I bluffed my way through my PW=x But think that the judges were much more intelligent to be fooled by my 'interesting' answers argh... However I guess the highlight of the interview was the fierce debate between me and the other candidate over a subject which most young people are probably pretty apathetic about---Politics. Enjoyed this kind of intellectual exchange rather than senseless gossiping which only serve to poison relations along different individuals...
Feelings? Hope for the best, but expect the worst...
Monday, March 24, 2008
Sometimes
Sometimes
Sometimes it really saddens to me watch with my own eyes how things have changed.
Sometimes I just wish I could have done more to prevent all these things from happening.
Or maybe prevent all these things from happening by NOT doing it.
Passion. It has always being there from the beginning till now, just that I dun really have the strength and heart to go on. Cos its quite impossible to do anything that I wished... Understood a new philosophy: Sometimes you gain more when you lose something.
Ironic, isn't it?
Sometimes it really saddens to me watch with my own eyes how things have changed.
Sometimes I just wish I could have done more to prevent all these things from happening.
Or maybe prevent all these things from happening by NOT doing it.
Passion. It has always being there from the beginning till now, just that I dun really have the strength and heart to go on. Cos its quite impossible to do anything that I wished... Understood a new philosophy: Sometimes you gain more when you lose something.
Ironic, isn't it?
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Breather
Breather
Finally there is time for me to blog again:)
Been pretty busy with all the open house, university applications and fruitful discussions with my friends... Went out with Brandon, Enrico and Vincent(Chan) yesterday to have dinner at a japanese restaurant in cineleisure, kudos to eric for sacrificing himself by having jap food after returning from japan=p Had a lot of fun talking about special characteristics of several faculties in universities lol.. Also about Eric's random history, Vincent's owning grades and how Brandon and I think alike in our university application:) Vincent went to Tiong Bahru Plaza to see a friend off afterwards so the remaining three of us took a stroll along Orchard Road before deciding to pay the arcade at dhoby ghaut a visit. A really good place to destress and forget your troubles for the time being... By that time I almost couldn't take it anymore, cause I was already having fever that afternoon.. Luckily I appeared healthy enough to avoid detection from my parents when I told them I was going out:) We seldom get the chance to meet up so of course die die also must go haha! But seriously I was in a confused state when I got home, could hear myself calling out names throughout the night.. Can't remember what I said and dun bother trying to recall lol.. I felt as though my whole body was on fire, quite sure my temperature reached 40 degrees at some point of the time=X
However I was slightly better when I woke up this morning:) Went to NJ to settle some admin stuff and saw several of my juniors: Kim Yong, Wee Siang and Keng Yi... Only talked to them for a short while due to time constraint.. Felt the school was abit empty but later got to know from the canteen drink stall auntie that the school is having enrichment week now.. Met up with Vincent(Lim) after we were done with our stuff at Orchard to have a meal together.. Oh my he made army life in NS sound so fun and exciting lol! And we applied for the same courses too haha:) Went shopping for clothes at Far East Plaza, hmm the prices at the shop are really not bad I must say.. It was then I realised how fat I have become=X Anyway we visited kino and read a NS comic thats really funny.. We both having dinner at home, so went back shortly after that..
Though I was down with an illness and busy with uni application for the past few days; I really enjoyed them cause I got the luxury of spending some quality time with my best friends.. Sometimes I am really scared of losing these friends just because we dun really get the chance to meet up during my two hectic years at NJ, but its good to know that they are always around you, especially when you need their company... A true friend is one who comforts you and helps you to think of possible solutions when you get lousy results and not one who merely throws a few words of sympathy and leaving you to suffer alone. A true friend is not one who will only be concerned about his or her fantastic grades and too busy to be bothered about those who had done badly. Alright guess I will need more rest now, so I shall stop here...
Finally there is time for me to blog again:)
Been pretty busy with all the open house, university applications and fruitful discussions with my friends... Went out with Brandon, Enrico and Vincent(Chan) yesterday to have dinner at a japanese restaurant in cineleisure, kudos to eric for sacrificing himself by having jap food after returning from japan=p Had a lot of fun talking about special characteristics of several faculties in universities lol.. Also about Eric's random history, Vincent's owning grades and how Brandon and I think alike in our university application:) Vincent went to Tiong Bahru Plaza to see a friend off afterwards so the remaining three of us took a stroll along Orchard Road before deciding to pay the arcade at dhoby ghaut a visit. A really good place to destress and forget your troubles for the time being... By that time I almost couldn't take it anymore, cause I was already having fever that afternoon.. Luckily I appeared healthy enough to avoid detection from my parents when I told them I was going out:) We seldom get the chance to meet up so of course die die also must go haha! But seriously I was in a confused state when I got home, could hear myself calling out names throughout the night.. Can't remember what I said and dun bother trying to recall lol.. I felt as though my whole body was on fire, quite sure my temperature reached 40 degrees at some point of the time=X
However I was slightly better when I woke up this morning:) Went to NJ to settle some admin stuff and saw several of my juniors: Kim Yong, Wee Siang and Keng Yi... Only talked to them for a short while due to time constraint.. Felt the school was abit empty but later got to know from the canteen drink stall auntie that the school is having enrichment week now.. Met up with Vincent(Lim) after we were done with our stuff at Orchard to have a meal together.. Oh my he made army life in NS sound so fun and exciting lol! And we applied for the same courses too haha:) Went shopping for clothes at Far East Plaza, hmm the prices at the shop are really not bad I must say.. It was then I realised how fat I have become=X Anyway we visited kino and read a NS comic thats really funny.. We both having dinner at home, so went back shortly after that..
Though I was down with an illness and busy with uni application for the past few days; I really enjoyed them cause I got the luxury of spending some quality time with my best friends.. Sometimes I am really scared of losing these friends just because we dun really get the chance to meet up during my two hectic years at NJ, but its good to know that they are always around you, especially when you need their company... A true friend is one who comforts you and helps you to think of possible solutions when you get lousy results and not one who merely throws a few words of sympathy and leaving you to suffer alone. A true friend is not one who will only be concerned about his or her fantastic grades and too busy to be bothered about those who had done badly. Alright guess I will need more rest now, so I shall stop here...
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Rewind
Rewind
I am so sick of you acting as if nothing had happened.
Why cant you understand that things will never be the same anymore?
The excuse was just an attempt to avoid something which you dread doing.
Because you do not require two people to complete a task which one can accomplish.
I am growing up and becoming more mature, so should you.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Sleepless Night
Sleepless Night
Shall blog about Harmoc Camp 08 which started yesterday and ended today. The J2s kindly invited the seniors back to watch our very own talentine, which was actually a mini competition in conjunction with their preparation for the upcoming concert in June at the Esplanade Recital Studio. Felt honoured to attend the concert as one of the judges and I was pleased by overall standard of the newcomers. Can sense that the juniors really put in a lot of hard work to deliver wonderful and entertaining performances:)
Night games were pretty fun too! I was assigned to become one of the station masters for nightwalk by Norman several minutes beforehand=X But luckily I managed to conduct the session quite well haha... Had TONS of fun attempting to scare my juniors with my secret weapon: Rubber Snake. Its pretty amazing how a mere harmless rubber snake can scare the living daylights out of some juniors; especially a few which I will not name (hint: the very tall guy) in order to avoid any further embarrassment to them:P
Played several card games and RISK with the juniors throughout the night... The RISK game was simply thrilling as many players compete with each other for the right to dominate this planet... Must really say that Wee Xiang, Jing Kai, Eugene and Yun Ting were great players and also an inexhaustible source of entertainment:D Watched Jay's 2007 Taipei Concert with Jing Kai, Alvin and Shi Rui after the RISK game... I must say Jay is very talented and his singing in live concerts has improved! Before I forget, thanks to Shi Rui for helping me to pass the two dollars to the J2 guys:)
Alright feeling sleepy now, shall stop here ba...
Friday, March 07, 2008
Aftermath
Aftermath
What a fitting name to describe this fateful day.
Getting unsatisfactory results really stings and hurts.
Well, at least I didnt see what I dun wish to see.
Thats all.
What a fitting name to describe this fateful day.
Getting unsatisfactory results really stings and hurts.
Well, at least I didnt see what I dun wish to see.
Thats all.
Thursday, March 06, 2008
Blue Storm
Blue Storm
亘古长夜
善恶交接
我终於懂得流眼泪
洪荒世界
百分之七十都是水
湛蓝的
旷野
在海平面渴望满月
於是我终於学会告解
弥赛亚被世人误解
被分类
爱恨
从此敌对
From Jay's 蓝色风暴, pretty cool huh?
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
Courage
Courage
I really need courage to face what is coming my way on friday.
The next few days shall be spent on preparing myself for it.
Will there still be a chance? I am not sure. But I still choose to be optimistic, as it will make the rest of the journey a whole lot easier.
I really need courage to face what is coming my way on friday.
The next few days shall be spent on preparing myself for it.
Will there still be a chance? I am not sure. But I still choose to be optimistic, as it will make the rest of the journey a whole lot easier.
Friday, February 29, 2008
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Results
Results Coming Soon?
That day is approaching, whether I like it or not. Seriously I dun think I am going to do well for it. Realised it was because I did not get my priorities right. In short, I just wasn't concentrating on the things which I was supposed to be focussing on. Even though I told myself many many many times that I must do the right things at the right time.. Used to think I use my head more than my heart, but I was terribly wrong... Anyway too late for any regrets now. Will just have to see what I can do to minimise the damage to my parents; cos I am the only son and my dad is eldest in the family... Can almost hear them saying things like:
You are our only Hope!
The future of the Tan Family depends on you!
You are the most intelligent in your generation so you are sure to be able to make it!
Feeling very irresponsible now. I dun really wish to see their disappointed faces. But I will still love them. At the very least they care about me. Some of my friends too. For my "friends" who do not really know how to appreciate or care about me, I would prefer that you do not ask me regarding my results when that day comes. Still, I believe I can survive this coming ordeal. In one way or another.
That day is approaching, whether I like it or not. Seriously I dun think I am going to do well for it. Realised it was because I did not get my priorities right. In short, I just wasn't concentrating on the things which I was supposed to be focussing on. Even though I told myself many many many times that I must do the right things at the right time.. Used to think I use my head more than my heart, but I was terribly wrong... Anyway too late for any regrets now. Will just have to see what I can do to minimise the damage to my parents; cos I am the only son and my dad is eldest in the family... Can almost hear them saying things like:
You are our only Hope!
The future of the Tan Family depends on you!
You are the most intelligent in your generation so you are sure to be able to make it!
Feeling very irresponsible now. I dun really wish to see their disappointed faces. But I will still love them. At the very least they care about me. Some of my friends too. For my "friends" who do not really know how to appreciate or care about me, I would prefer that you do not ask me regarding my results when that day comes. Still, I believe I can survive this coming ordeal. In one way or another.
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Puzzled
Puzzled
I dun get it. Even after I had sent an email criticizing their irresponsible act; I still got chosen as one of the best three team leaders and was given an award (which was actually a book).
I dun get it. Even after I had sent an email criticizing their irresponsible act; I still got chosen as one of the best three team leaders and was given an award (which was actually a book).
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Change the World
Change the World
Went to the arcade at AMK and played several games with my harmoc+cat high juniors=) They were Eugene, Kim Yong and Wei Xiang.. We went to watch "L-Change the World" afterwards.. The movie was not as exciting or thrilling as Death Note but I liked it because it had many different elements in it: Comedy, Action, Horror etc...
The way L babysit the kids was simply hilarious lol.. Several scenes in the movie were not meant for the faint-hearted.. Really too disgusting, I must say.. Poor Kim Yong was eating his bread when those pictures came out=X Well, the audience also got the chance to see the rather "physically-challenged" L pulling off some fantastic stunts like jumping onto a moving plane or stopping a moving plane from crashing into the control tower.. Overall a great movie:)
Had a nice chat with they all and they even asked me to go back on tuesday haha!! Can't wait to meet them and the rest of my juniors this tuesday haha:D
Went to the arcade at AMK and played several games with my harmoc+cat high juniors=) They were Eugene, Kim Yong and Wei Xiang.. We went to watch "L-Change the World" afterwards.. The movie was not as exciting or thrilling as Death Note but I liked it because it had many different elements in it: Comedy, Action, Horror etc...
The way L babysit the kids was simply hilarious lol.. Several scenes in the movie were not meant for the faint-hearted.. Really too disgusting, I must say.. Poor Kim Yong was eating his bread when those pictures came out=X Well, the audience also got the chance to see the rather "physically-challenged" L pulling off some fantastic stunts like jumping onto a moving plane or stopping a moving plane from crashing into the control tower.. Overall a great movie:)
Had a nice chat with they all and they even asked me to go back on tuesday haha!! Can't wait to meet them and the rest of my juniors this tuesday haha:D
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Valentine
Valentine's Day
A tiring, but nevertheless fun and exciting day:)
Love: Chemistry or Biology?
I would say it's GP.
A tiring, but nevertheless fun and exciting day:)
Love: Chemistry or Biology?
I would say it's GP.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Photography
Photography
I am never considered a "camera" person. Be it taking or being taken, I have never expressed any particular interest in any of the above. Yet my new assignment requires me to take at least 50 photos per day in places which I regard as "No Man's Land".
The job was tougher than what I had imagined. Singapore can seem surprisingly big even though its actually no bigger than a tiny red dot on the world map. It's a test of determination and endurance; the determination to accomplish my task and the endurance to complete my journey. And I am proud to declare that I have improved in both aspects:)
Today was the record-breaking day; I took 97 photos of industrial buildings in Senoko, which is situated in the far north. Felt immensely tired but satisfied on my way home on the bus. Made a couple of new friends too, though not very familiar with them yet...
Hmm think that I am some kind of workaholic, must find something to do if not will get bored easily haha.. No wonder it is said that my horoscope (Capricorn) values career above everything else; I used to think otherwise but it seems like the prediction is coming true now lol=p
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Realization
Life's like that
When you thought that you have gained something, you have just lost it.
When you are being understanding towards others, others do not seek to understand you.
When you are speaking the truth to someone, that person reciprocates with lies.
When you are being selfless, others only become more selfish.
One day, a man was sleeping when he dreamt of God.
"Oh God, do you love me?" asked the man.
"Why, of course! I love you more than myself." replied God.
"So how do I know if your love for me will not change no matter what?"
"If Love changes so easily, it would not be called Love."
Just another penny for my thoughts.
When you thought that you have gained something, you have just lost it.
When you are being understanding towards others, others do not seek to understand you.
When you are speaking the truth to someone, that person reciprocates with lies.
When you are being selfless, others only become more selfish.
One day, a man was sleeping when he dreamt of God.
"Oh God, do you love me?" asked the man.
"Why, of course! I love you more than myself." replied God.
"So how do I know if your love for me will not change no matter what?"
"If Love changes so easily, it would not be called Love."
Just another penny for my thoughts.
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Hmm, what else can I say? Forget it.
Hmm, what else can I say?
| The Keys to Your Heart |
 You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. |
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Job and Career
Job and Career
Do you really know the difference between job and career? Many dun understand why I chose to take on several different jobs instead of deciding on one that is office-related which comes with a reasonable pay and comfortable working conditions. My response to the above comment is simple. It is based on the belief that accumulating various working experiences reaps much more benefits than clinging onto only one job. The latter is only a short term solution to a long term problem, my job seeking experience was the cause of my paradigm shift; it proved that it didn't matter whether I scored straight As for my O levels, it only showed how difficult it was for someone with limited working experience to get himself a decent job. The crux lies in being employable and not in being employed. Exposure of different working backgrounds will enable one to acquire a range of useful skills that can be used effectively somewhere else. Well, it is a cold hard fact that the employee has always been the victim of exploitation by the employer; let's accept this reality and move on. Perhaps the only solution to avoid being exploited is to exploit others by being the employer. Financial equality may just be another myth in the society today...
Do you really know the difference between job and career? Many dun understand why I chose to take on several different jobs instead of deciding on one that is office-related which comes with a reasonable pay and comfortable working conditions. My response to the above comment is simple. It is based on the belief that accumulating various working experiences reaps much more benefits than clinging onto only one job. The latter is only a short term solution to a long term problem, my job seeking experience was the cause of my paradigm shift; it proved that it didn't matter whether I scored straight As for my O levels, it only showed how difficult it was for someone with limited working experience to get himself a decent job. The crux lies in being employable and not in being employed. Exposure of different working backgrounds will enable one to acquire a range of useful skills that can be used effectively somewhere else. Well, it is a cold hard fact that the employee has always been the victim of exploitation by the employer; let's accept this reality and move on. Perhaps the only solution to avoid being exploited is to exploit others by being the employer. Financial equality may just be another myth in the society today...
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Harmoc Orientation
Harmoc Orientation
Went to NJ to collect my EAGLES award from the General Office and attended harmoc orientation yesterday:) Firstly I met up with Wuzhen during afternoon to go NJ together, where we decided to alight at coronation plaza and take a cab to see how fast the fare meter jumps lol.. Twenty cents for every three hundred and eighty-five metres=S After that we went for harmoc orientation.. Heard from Gladys that ninety over J1s signed up for harmoc during the CCA carnival, which was a pretty good figure to start off with:) Kudos to the seniors (J1s are juniors, J2s are seniors and J3s are alumni) for coming up with innovative ideas in promoting harmoc and making much effort to raise funds through newspaper collection for the upcoming concert in June:) Examples include the catchy slogan “harmonicar-music on the move”, a harmoc package containing a basic chromatic harmoc, instruction manual (self-made) and absolutely free training by the seniors! In addition, they discover several J1s with rare musical talents whom Mr Tang insisted that “they must not leave no matter what”.. Should these people stay in harmoc, we can expect to observe a tremendous improvement in the sound quality and music standard:D This brought back the memories from the past during the last orientation.. Back then harmoc was still quite a low-profile CCA, unlike other CCAs in NJ which already enjoyed widespread support such as the Canoeing team.. Besides we did not have that many members as compared to other major CCAs such as the Chinese Orchestra.. Furthermore we were unable to boast of any remarkable achievement as a gold in SYF was pretty much expected of us.. Indeed, we did not possess some of these advantages which some CCAs in NJ had but I was determined to let harmoc develop our comparative advantage against the others.. From my past experience and from what my friends had shared with me, I discovered that many of us stay in a CCA not because of its achievement, not because of its numerical strength, not because of its popularity but because of its people.. From the people, by the people and for the people.. Alright back to the orientation.. I must say the games which Jia Neng and Jamie play are really not for the faint-hearted, after the “panties” episode during the Christmas party at Glady’s house Jia Neng’s back with a vengeance with her “flour” game and “captain’s orange”=S The highlight was the “coffee string” which was intended to bond harmoc together---the extreme way=X I felt sorry and a sense of sympathy for the poor J1s who were supposed to play them but to my surprise it seemed that they were rather enthusiastic about these games! Felt bored after watching them play for a while and decided to play some basketball at the court with Zhen Huan, Angeline and Ying Hui.. The last time I played basketball in NJ was after A Levels and I felt great being able to play at there once again.. After the game harmoc watched some videos in one of the TA classrooms, we watched a video on last year’s orientation and another one on the genting trip.. Liked the Ju Hua Tai by Mr Tang:) When the whole thing ended Wuzhen and I stayed back to chat with the seniors and the EXCO updated us of the upcoming events for harmoc..
To the alumni: The seniors need our help! Do perform in their concert if you are able to! As for me let’s pray that I can be released from my chalet when the day of the concert comes (tentatively on 9 or 10 June).. Anyway, they are having newspaper collection on this coming Sunday so pls go down and support them if you can:)
Went to NJ to collect my EAGLES award from the General Office and attended harmoc orientation yesterday:) Firstly I met up with Wuzhen during afternoon to go NJ together, where we decided to alight at coronation plaza and take a cab to see how fast the fare meter jumps lol.. Twenty cents for every three hundred and eighty-five metres=S After that we went for harmoc orientation.. Heard from Gladys that ninety over J1s signed up for harmoc during the CCA carnival, which was a pretty good figure to start off with:) Kudos to the seniors (J1s are juniors, J2s are seniors and J3s are alumni) for coming up with innovative ideas in promoting harmoc and making much effort to raise funds through newspaper collection for the upcoming concert in June:) Examples include the catchy slogan “harmonicar-music on the move”, a harmoc package containing a basic chromatic harmoc, instruction manual (self-made) and absolutely free training by the seniors! In addition, they discover several J1s with rare musical talents whom Mr Tang insisted that “they must not leave no matter what”.. Should these people stay in harmoc, we can expect to observe a tremendous improvement in the sound quality and music standard:D This brought back the memories from the past during the last orientation.. Back then harmoc was still quite a low-profile CCA, unlike other CCAs in NJ which already enjoyed widespread support such as the Canoeing team.. Besides we did not have that many members as compared to other major CCAs such as the Chinese Orchestra.. Furthermore we were unable to boast of any remarkable achievement as a gold in SYF was pretty much expected of us.. Indeed, we did not possess some of these advantages which some CCAs in NJ had but I was determined to let harmoc develop our comparative advantage against the others.. From my past experience and from what my friends had shared with me, I discovered that many of us stay in a CCA not because of its achievement, not because of its numerical strength, not because of its popularity but because of its people.. From the people, by the people and for the people.. Alright back to the orientation.. I must say the games which Jia Neng and Jamie play are really not for the faint-hearted, after the “panties” episode during the Christmas party at Glady’s house Jia Neng’s back with a vengeance with her “flour” game and “captain’s orange”=S The highlight was the “coffee string” which was intended to bond harmoc together---the extreme way=X I felt sorry and a sense of sympathy for the poor J1s who were supposed to play them but to my surprise it seemed that they were rather enthusiastic about these games! Felt bored after watching them play for a while and decided to play some basketball at the court with Zhen Huan, Angeline and Ying Hui.. The last time I played basketball in NJ was after A Levels and I felt great being able to play at there once again.. After the game harmoc watched some videos in one of the TA classrooms, we watched a video on last year’s orientation and another one on the genting trip.. Liked the Ju Hua Tai by Mr Tang:) When the whole thing ended Wuzhen and I stayed back to chat with the seniors and the EXCO updated us of the upcoming events for harmoc..
To the alumni: The seniors need our help! Do perform in their concert if you are able to! As for me let’s pray that I can be released from my chalet when the day of the concert comes (tentatively on 9 or 10 June).. Anyway, they are having newspaper collection on this coming Sunday so pls go down and support them if you can:)
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Happy Birthday!
Happy Birthday!
Returned my warm and cosy home yesterday from my first formal camp with Chua Chu Kang Pri:) Managed to learn more about organisation, planning and communicating with kids.. I liked the trainers from this camp better as most of them showed initiative in carrying out duties even when they dun have to.. Thanks to Darylyn (sorry if I spelt your name wrongly:P) and Jason for helping me to prepare dinner for the other trainers who were busy with setting up the campfire:D The kids this time round were slightly more playful and hence required more patience on my part, nearly lost my temper on the first day but luckily managed to hold back my emotions in the nick of time.. Later that night the trainer of my buddy group Aziz told me that a good trainer can appear to be fierce and yet not be angry.. His advice served as an enlightenment and I gradually exercised more self-control when managing my group.. I also realised that I may, sometimes be too good for my own good, when this happens I get bullied by others easily (especially the kids).. Thus I became more strict with my kids and reprimanded them when they did the wrong things despite my clear instructions.. But I was glad that they managed to understand the reasons as to why I reprimanded or punished them, after which they look upon me a as good friend again:) Decided to take a break after this camp before going for another one next week..
Anyway, Happy Birthday to me! Since today's my birthday.. Hmm second year being an adult.. My first year being an adult was not a very pleasant experience with many disappointments and betrayals.. Luckily I have the support of my close friends and dear buddies, they were there when I needed them the most:) Maybe I should learn to judge people and circumstances more carefully and not be such a gullible person whom I used to be.. Maybe I shouldn't sacrifice so much for others who decided to sacrifice me in the end.. Maybe some people will never realise how much I have done for them over the years.. Nevertheless, I only want those people who are around me to be healthy and live happily, thats all I ask for:) There's no need for any interesting birthday surprise, expensive birthday present or delicious birthday cake, the best gift that I have ever received is our friendship:D
Lastly, I do not reply to comments made by anonymous people. Thank you.
Returned my warm and cosy home yesterday from my first formal camp with Chua Chu Kang Pri:) Managed to learn more about organisation, planning and communicating with kids.. I liked the trainers from this camp better as most of them showed initiative in carrying out duties even when they dun have to.. Thanks to Darylyn (sorry if I spelt your name wrongly:P) and Jason for helping me to prepare dinner for the other trainers who were busy with setting up the campfire:D The kids this time round were slightly more playful and hence required more patience on my part, nearly lost my temper on the first day but luckily managed to hold back my emotions in the nick of time.. Later that night the trainer of my buddy group Aziz told me that a good trainer can appear to be fierce and yet not be angry.. His advice served as an enlightenment and I gradually exercised more self-control when managing my group.. I also realised that I may, sometimes be too good for my own good, when this happens I get bullied by others easily (especially the kids).. Thus I became more strict with my kids and reprimanded them when they did the wrong things despite my clear instructions.. But I was glad that they managed to understand the reasons as to why I reprimanded or punished them, after which they look upon me a as good friend again:) Decided to take a break after this camp before going for another one next week..
Anyway, Happy Birthday to me! Since today's my birthday.. Hmm second year being an adult.. My first year being an adult was not a very pleasant experience with many disappointments and betrayals.. Luckily I have the support of my close friends and dear buddies, they were there when I needed them the most:) Maybe I should learn to judge people and circumstances more carefully and not be such a gullible person whom I used to be.. Maybe I shouldn't sacrifice so much for others who decided to sacrifice me in the end.. Maybe some people will never realise how much I have done for them over the years.. Nevertheless, I only want those people who are around me to be healthy and live happily, thats all I ask for:) There's no need for any interesting birthday surprise, expensive birthday present or delicious birthday cake, the best gift that I have ever received is our friendship:D
Lastly, I do not reply to comments made by anonymous people. Thank you.
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Camp Attachment
Camp Attachment
WENT for a camp attachment with Jun Yuan Primary School for InnoTrek on last Wednesday and ended on Friday, overall I felt the camp was terrific! Initially I thought that being a camp instructor taking charge of a group of primary five kids would be an easy task but it soon proved to be a difficult challenge.=S I discovered how short a kid's attention span could get, realised there's no limit to the amount of energy a kid could possess and most importantly, I felt the warmth which kids could give:D Leading a group of students, being a game station master and conducting debrief sessions were rather familiar duties to me as I have done so before in harmoc but the level of difficulty was much higher in this case.. Still remembered I almost shouted until my throat was dry when I started teaching the kids really simple cheers but they just couldn't concentrate on what I was telling them=X Later on I observed on how the other trainers who were much more experienced than me did it and gradually figured out the trick to controlling a bunch of kids haha.. It was then I saw the amount of passion and enthusiasm in the kids when they cheer, it was simply a sight to behold.. My group of class 5-4 was rather quiet at the beginning but the cheering sessions really bonded them much closer together and they cheered their hearts out.. Although they didn't win any prize in the end, they deserve the first prize in my heart:) Too bad I am using my old handphone now and thus unable to take any pictures with them but they were just simply CUTE! You couldn't imagine what the kids did to me-_-"
They:
messed up my hair (which I painstakingly took half an hour to style)
"massaged" my shoulders (like a massaging machine operating on full turbo)
demanded piggyback rides (I almost suffocated during every ride)
hugged almost every part of my body (first time I felt molested haha)
Besides all the points mentioned above, they also asked interesting questions, such as:
"How old are you?"
"Are you from Mediacorp? You look like some actor from a 9pm show in channel 8!"
"Do you have a girlfriend?"
"You want to get married at 19 right?" (they asked this after I replied them I am single and turning 19 soon)
"Can give me your handphone number?"
"Where do you live? I want to visit you!"
"When are you coming to our school? We want to bring you around!"
But I felt really touched when a boy whom I scolded often for being playful said this to me on the last day of the camp: "Can you not leave? When can I see you again? I will miss you alot..."
Also felt appreciated when the form teacher of my class made special comments regarding my performance in the feedback form, saying that I was very keen and passionate about my job:) Anyway, just can't wait to go for another camp! And special thanks to Wuzhen for introducing this job to me:D
WENT for a camp attachment with Jun Yuan Primary School for InnoTrek on last Wednesday and ended on Friday, overall I felt the camp was terrific! Initially I thought that being a camp instructor taking charge of a group of primary five kids would be an easy task but it soon proved to be a difficult challenge.=S I discovered how short a kid's attention span could get, realised there's no limit to the amount of energy a kid could possess and most importantly, I felt the warmth which kids could give:D Leading a group of students, being a game station master and conducting debrief sessions were rather familiar duties to me as I have done so before in harmoc but the level of difficulty was much higher in this case.. Still remembered I almost shouted until my throat was dry when I started teaching the kids really simple cheers but they just couldn't concentrate on what I was telling them=X Later on I observed on how the other trainers who were much more experienced than me did it and gradually figured out the trick to controlling a bunch of kids haha.. It was then I saw the amount of passion and enthusiasm in the kids when they cheer, it was simply a sight to behold.. My group of class 5-4 was rather quiet at the beginning but the cheering sessions really bonded them much closer together and they cheered their hearts out.. Although they didn't win any prize in the end, they deserve the first prize in my heart:) Too bad I am using my old handphone now and thus unable to take any pictures with them but they were just simply CUTE! You couldn't imagine what the kids did to me-_-"
They:
messed up my hair (which I painstakingly took half an hour to style)
"massaged" my shoulders (like a massaging machine operating on full turbo)
demanded piggyback rides (I almost suffocated during every ride)
hugged almost every part of my body (first time I felt molested haha)
Besides all the points mentioned above, they also asked interesting questions, such as:
"How old are you?"
"Are you from Mediacorp? You look like some actor from a 9pm show in channel 8!"
"Do you have a girlfriend?"
"You want to get married at 19 right?" (they asked this after I replied them I am single and turning 19 soon)
"Can give me your handphone number?"
"Where do you live? I want to visit you!"
"When are you coming to our school? We want to bring you around!"
But I felt really touched when a boy whom I scolded often for being playful said this to me on the last day of the camp: "Can you not leave? When can I see you again? I will miss you alot..."
Also felt appreciated when the form teacher of my class made special comments regarding my performance in the feedback form, saying that I was very keen and passionate about my job:) Anyway, just can't wait to go for another camp! And special thanks to Wuzhen for introducing this job to me:D
Sunday, January 06, 2008
Song appreciation
Song appreciation
Hi folks! Still working on my new year resolution, so sorry to keep you guys waiting haha.. Anyway here's another song for yer, you will actually realise both the songs here (彩虹 and 普通朋友) are my favourites (It's listed in the profile for your info).. Translation done by me once again for the same reasons, just sit back and enjoy:)
普通朋友 (Ordinary Friends)
Composer: David Tao (陶喆)
Lyricist: David Tao (陶喆)
Translator: Tan Guo Hui (陈国辉)
等待 我随时随地在等待
Waiting, I am waiting anytime and anywhere
做你感情上的依赖
to be someone whom you can rely on emotionally
我没有任何的疑问 这是爱
I do not have any doubts, this is Love
我猜 你早就想要说明白
I guess, you wanted to make things clear long ago
我觉得自己好失败
I feel like a complete failure
从天堂掉落到深渊 多无奈
Fallen from heaven to abyss, so helpless
我愿意改变 重新再来一遍
I am willing to change and start afresh once again
我无法只是普通朋友
I just can't be an ordinary friend
感情已那么深 叫我怎么能收手
How do you expect me to withdraw when the Love is already so deep?
但你说 I only want to be your friend 做个朋友
But you say "I only want to be your friend", be a friend
我在 你心中只是just a friend 不是情人
I am just a friend in your heart, not a lover
我感激你对我这样的坦白
I am grateful to you for being so frank
但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
But I can't take back my Love for the time being
So I 我不能只是 be your friend
So I can't just be your friend
Nice song rite? Just dun get emo and cry.. Anyway can't seem to understand why I like listening to emo songs, especially when feeling emo and watching other people emo-ing isn't my cup of tea=S
Quote of the Day:
You will realise the WORTH of something only when you have LOST it, by then it is too LATE for regrets.
-----gh, aka guy in blues
Hi folks! Still working on my new year resolution, so sorry to keep you guys waiting haha.. Anyway here's another song for yer, you will actually realise both the songs here (彩虹 and 普通朋友) are my favourites (It's listed in the profile for your info).. Translation done by me once again for the same reasons, just sit back and enjoy:)
普通朋友 (Ordinary Friends)
Composer: David Tao (陶喆)
Lyricist: David Tao (陶喆)
Translator: Tan Guo Hui (陈国辉)
等待 我随时随地在等待
Waiting, I am waiting anytime and anywhere
做你感情上的依赖
to be someone whom you can rely on emotionally
我没有任何的疑问 这是爱
I do not have any doubts, this is Love
我猜 你早就想要说明白
I guess, you wanted to make things clear long ago
我觉得自己好失败
I feel like a complete failure
从天堂掉落到深渊 多无奈
Fallen from heaven to abyss, so helpless
我愿意改变 重新再来一遍
I am willing to change and start afresh once again
我无法只是普通朋友
I just can't be an ordinary friend
感情已那么深 叫我怎么能收手
How do you expect me to withdraw when the Love is already so deep?
但你说 I only want to be your friend 做个朋友
But you say "I only want to be your friend", be a friend
我在 你心中只是just a friend 不是情人
I am just a friend in your heart, not a lover
我感激你对我这样的坦白
I am grateful to you for being so frank
但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
But I can't take back my Love for the time being
So I 我不能只是 be your friend
So I can't just be your friend
Nice song rite? Just dun get emo and cry.. Anyway can't seem to understand why I like listening to emo songs, especially when feeling emo and watching other people emo-ing isn't my cup of tea=S
Quote of the Day:
You will realise the WORTH of something only when you have LOST it, by then it is too LATE for regrets.
-----gh, aka guy in blues
Saturday, January 05, 2008
Time for change
Time for change
Saw the report regarding presidential candidate Barack Obama's victory on Channel NewsAsia yesterday, his victory speech here calling for change in America has triggered deep thoughts in my mind.. I love to watch politicians giving inspiring, fiery speeches which always never fail to stir the crowd and provoke imagination:) He reminds me of MLK, who had been widely recognised as one of the greatest speakers history has ever known.. Yep, I am in need of a change too and his phrase that "ordinary people can do extraordinary things" will serve as a powerful form of movitation when I am ready to set out to accomplish my personal goals:D Watch it and you wun be disappointed!
Friday, January 04, 2008
New Year Resolutions
New Year Resolution
A new year is here! Time to set new goals:) Will be spending quite some time thinking about it, meanwhile here's something to entertain the faithful readers of my blog...
彩虹 (Rainbow)
Composer: Jay Chou (周杰伦)
Lyricist: Jay Chou (周杰伦)
Translator: Tan Guo Hui (陈国辉)
哪里有彩虹告诉我 能不能把我的愿望还给我
Where can a rainbow tell me if it can return my wish to me?
为什麽天这麽安静 所有的云都跑到我这里
Why is the sky so quiet? All the clouds have gathered at my side
有没有口罩一个给我 释怀说了太多就成真不了
Can I have a mouth mask? Things will not come true when too much is said
也许时间是一种解药 也是我现在正服下的毒药
Perhaps time is a kind of antidote or poison which I am taking now
看不见你的笑 我怎麽睡得着
How do I fall asleep when I can't see your smile?
你的声音这麽近我却抱不到
I am unable to hug you when your voice is yet so near
没有地球太阳还是会绕
The Sun will continue to spin even without the Earth
没有理由我也能自己走
I can leave by myself for no reason
你要离开 我知道很简单
I know it is very simple for you to leave
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
You said reliance was our obstacle
就算放开 但能不能别没收我的爱
Can you not confiscate my love even if you have to let go?
当作我最後才明白
Take it as I am the last to understand
Jay Chou can write touching lyrics too, which you will be able to experience certain emotional changes if you listen to this song carefully.. I have seen many versions of the song translation and dun quite agree with all of them, thus I have decided to write a translation by myself to show my perspective of this song:D Translating 彩虹 helps me to gain a deeper understanding of the meaning behind this song and appreciate this song better.. Overall, I find this a nice song and hope to share it with my friends haha:) Just dun get emo and cry okay? Lol..
A new year is here! Time to set new goals:) Will be spending quite some time thinking about it, meanwhile here's something to entertain the faithful readers of my blog...
彩虹 (Rainbow)
Composer: Jay Chou (周杰伦)
Lyricist: Jay Chou (周杰伦)
Translator: Tan Guo Hui (陈国辉)
哪里有彩虹告诉我 能不能把我的愿望还给我
Where can a rainbow tell me if it can return my wish to me?
为什麽天这麽安静 所有的云都跑到我这里
Why is the sky so quiet? All the clouds have gathered at my side
有没有口罩一个给我 释怀说了太多就成真不了
Can I have a mouth mask? Things will not come true when too much is said
也许时间是一种解药 也是我现在正服下的毒药
Perhaps time is a kind of antidote or poison which I am taking now
看不见你的笑 我怎麽睡得着
How do I fall asleep when I can't see your smile?
你的声音这麽近我却抱不到
I am unable to hug you when your voice is yet so near
没有地球太阳还是会绕
The Sun will continue to spin even without the Earth
没有理由我也能自己走
I can leave by myself for no reason
你要离开 我知道很简单
I know it is very simple for you to leave
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
You said reliance was our obstacle
就算放开 但能不能别没收我的爱
Can you not confiscate my love even if you have to let go?
当作我最後才明白
Take it as I am the last to understand
Jay Chou can write touching lyrics too, which you will be able to experience certain emotional changes if you listen to this song carefully.. I have seen many versions of the song translation and dun quite agree with all of them, thus I have decided to write a translation by myself to show my perspective of this song:D Translating 彩虹 helps me to gain a deeper understanding of the meaning behind this song and appreciate this song better.. Overall, I find this a nice song and hope to share it with my friends haha:) Just dun get emo and cry okay? Lol..
Thursday, January 03, 2008
Monday, December 31, 2007
I have something to say to...(continued)
I have something to say to...(continued)
Hey guys! Thanks for your patience during the last few days, the post which you all have been awaiting for is finally here=) Here it is:
I have something to say to:
My buddies frm River Valley (Brandon, Enrico and Vincent)
Brandon
The most physically fit and sensible among the four of us, I feel very secure and safe whenever you are around=) Miss your interesting comments such as "I will slap you arh" and "Guo Hui go play fiesta!" haha..
Enrico
You are the one whom I can connect with most easily, used to chat with you over the phone for looong hours, talking about anything in the sun=D Wonder if you still have the passion for singing? The gang of four can meet up for a kbox session someday hehe..
Vincent
I still can remember those days in RV when we played soccer and computer games in your house after school:) A very loyal friend to have, though you have become rather zhong4 se4 qing1 you3 throughout the past few years.. Thanks for helping me out by recommending a job to me!
My buddies from Catholic High (Daniel, Vincent and Xingzhi)
Daniel
Xiao3 hei1 describes you perfectly---small-sized and tanned, you possess a very interesting personality.. The duo comprising you and Xing Zhi always have been the primary source of entertainment during our kbox sessions lol:D Its hard not to laugh when you are around.. Felt really touched when you shed tears as you bade goodbye to us at the chalet T.T
Vincent
The exact duplicate of me! We simply have too many things in common: Jay Chou, basketball and singing.. One that you can share problems with and expect him to share some in return.. You are one who can go through thick and thin with me=> Mugging sessions and basketball trainings at Kim Seng CC were absolutely fun with you around and I hope to see you again before you leave for NS!
Xing Zhi
Hmm its seems like you are very well informed regarding the personal lives of many people lol.. Wonder how you managed to dig out those information when people tried all ways and means to bury them deep in the ground haha=P At first I know you as millionaire boy (cause he participated in the first episode of Who Wants to be a Millionaire pri sch special) and now you are considered a commando man already hehe.. Good Luck!
My buddies from National Junior College (Alvin, Cindy and Shi Jun)
Alvin
From what I have seen you are a "people" person, as you really love to include your friends in whatever you do lol.. Being your friend will never feel lonely and people will find it easy to communicate with you;) You are also one whom I can share problems with and lend a listening ear to troubled souls, so continue to keep it that way!
Cindy
Didn't really get the opportunity to know you well until we graduated from NJ.. Always more than ready to help me, be it advice or job.. I really appreciated all that you have done for me though sometimes things dun go un the way we want them to be.. My best farewell gift from NJ was our friendship=)
Shi Jun
MY SI GI NA! My most trusted crapper in NJ, the days in NJ would have been unbearable without you sia.. Hooray I got the chance to "caress" your bald head in Marina Square today.. Heard from you that it brings luck, maybe I will strike some lottery real soon lol! Remember to look for me whenever you are out from the "chalet" and share your spooky or funny experience with me=]
NJ Harmoc
NJ Harmoc is my pride:) It is a big family where harmophiles forge strong, everlasting friendships and develop their burning passion for harmoc.. After seeing NJ Harmoc growing from strength to strength and eventually emerging as the champion in this year's SYF (the only school to attain Gold with Honours) reinforced my belief that all the sacrifices made by not only me, but the EXCO and the rest of the band have been worth it:D Being the president was a difficult undertaking and I was fortunate to have the support of a group of highly dedicated and motivated EXCO members.. Other members which form the backbone of the band contributed to our success most significantly.. Including Mr Tang, Mr Song and Mrs Teai, NJHB is a formiable force to be reckoned with!
OMG its exactly 12am now.. Yep thats the end for 2007, looking forward to 2008!:D
*sound of fireworks exploding in the distance*
Hey guys! Thanks for your patience during the last few days, the post which you all have been awaiting for is finally here=) Here it is:
I have something to say to:
My buddies frm River Valley (Brandon, Enrico and Vincent)
Brandon
The most physically fit and sensible among the four of us, I feel very secure and safe whenever you are around=) Miss your interesting comments such as "I will slap you arh" and "Guo Hui go play fiesta!" haha..
Enrico
You are the one whom I can connect with most easily, used to chat with you over the phone for looong hours, talking about anything in the sun=D Wonder if you still have the passion for singing? The gang of four can meet up for a kbox session someday hehe..
Vincent
I still can remember those days in RV when we played soccer and computer games in your house after school:) A very loyal friend to have, though you have become rather zhong4 se4 qing1 you3 throughout the past few years.. Thanks for helping me out by recommending a job to me!
My buddies from Catholic High (Daniel, Vincent and Xingzhi)
Daniel
Xiao3 hei1 describes you perfectly---small-sized and tanned, you possess a very interesting personality.. The duo comprising you and Xing Zhi always have been the primary source of entertainment during our kbox sessions lol:D Its hard not to laugh when you are around.. Felt really touched when you shed tears as you bade goodbye to us at the chalet T.T
Vincent
The exact duplicate of me! We simply have too many things in common: Jay Chou, basketball and singing.. One that you can share problems with and expect him to share some in return.. You are one who can go through thick and thin with me=> Mugging sessions and basketball trainings at Kim Seng CC were absolutely fun with you around and I hope to see you again before you leave for NS!
Xing Zhi
Hmm its seems like you are very well informed regarding the personal lives of many people lol.. Wonder how you managed to dig out those information when people tried all ways and means to bury them deep in the ground haha=P At first I know you as millionaire boy (cause he participated in the first episode of Who Wants to be a Millionaire pri sch special) and now you are considered a commando man already hehe.. Good Luck!
My buddies from National Junior College (Alvin, Cindy and Shi Jun)
Alvin
From what I have seen you are a "people" person, as you really love to include your friends in whatever you do lol.. Being your friend will never feel lonely and people will find it easy to communicate with you;) You are also one whom I can share problems with and lend a listening ear to troubled souls, so continue to keep it that way!
Cindy
Didn't really get the opportunity to know you well until we graduated from NJ.. Always more than ready to help me, be it advice or job.. I really appreciated all that you have done for me though sometimes things dun go un the way we want them to be.. My best farewell gift from NJ was our friendship=)
Shi Jun
MY SI GI NA! My most trusted crapper in NJ, the days in NJ would have been unbearable without you sia.. Hooray I got the chance to "caress" your bald head in Marina Square today.. Heard from you that it brings luck, maybe I will strike some lottery real soon lol! Remember to look for me whenever you are out from the "chalet" and share your spooky or funny experience with me=]
NJ Harmoc
NJ Harmoc is my pride:) It is a big family where harmophiles forge strong, everlasting friendships and develop their burning passion for harmoc.. After seeing NJ Harmoc growing from strength to strength and eventually emerging as the champion in this year's SYF (the only school to attain Gold with Honours) reinforced my belief that all the sacrifices made by not only me, but the EXCO and the rest of the band have been worth it:D Being the president was a difficult undertaking and I was fortunate to have the support of a group of highly dedicated and motivated EXCO members.. Other members which form the backbone of the band contributed to our success most significantly.. Including Mr Tang, Mr Song and Mrs Teai, NJHB is a formiable force to be reckoned with!
OMG its exactly 12am now.. Yep thats the end for 2007, looking forward to 2008!:D
*sound of fireworks exploding in the distance*
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Harmoc Day
Harmoc Day
I used to think that leaving harmoc would spell the end of an exciting phase of my life, but today, my fellow Harmophiles (Harmoc-seeking) had proven me otherwise..
Octave finally had a sectional outing today, and it was fantastic in my opinion=) The octavians met at 11am in AMK bus interchange but I was unable to join them due to an emergency which only Wuzhen and I would know hehe.. We decided to meet up before looking for the rest of the octavians when Wuzhen suggested playing a nice little trick on them.. She told them she would be bringing a friend along and requested them to reserve 2 seats for her when in truth I was supposed to be the mysterious "friend".. I played along with her and informed Jamie that I wasn't going, citing the following as my reason: My friend just told me he was rejected by his loved one and harbouring suicidal thoughts, I cant help worrying about him and will visit him instead of going outing.. So sorry.. LOL!! Jamie actually fell for the trick and Wuzhen believed it initially=P Hard to describe their shocked faces when they saw me and Wuzhen entering the restaurant lol.. Took several pictures there, will post it as soon as I receive those photos from Wuzhen=) Went to fly kite afterwards in a park at Ang Mo Kio where I rediscovered my childhood.. The Guo-s (Guorong and Guo Hui) invented an unique way of playing the see-saw and provided a once-in-a-lifetime experience for the entire octave muahaha.. Visited Jia Neng's house later.. Her dog (with the name Brown) is sooo cute! It likes to turn round and round, trying to catch its tail and apparently it also obeyed my command when I said "shake hands!" The performers went for a quick shower before we left for Jamie's house.. What I found amusing was that her house contained a whole collection of Pokemon and Digimon figures which I managed to identify them one by one effortlessly=) Yeah I could finally display my vast knowledge of pokemon and digimon, similar to what Zhi Rui did during the Harmoc xmas party.. Its wasn't long before we set off to Dhoby Ghaut for the performance=D
The juniors were busy preparing for the performance at Plaza Singapura and I also helped out by carrying the heavier musical instuments from Mr Song's car boot.. Other seniors arrived shortly and I was glad to see many of the seniors (both J2s and J3s) turn up.. J2s: Angeline, Yi Fang, Shu Lin, Xinying, Guorong, Pei Wen, Wuzhen, Yu Ting and J3s: Shu Fen, Deborah, Elieen, Eugenia, Jiat Sing, Hwee Hwee, Jane, Ting Hui... Matthew was not considered exactly there, he was living in my handphone and listening to the concert at that moment haha.. I believe we can form a strong and supportive Alumni after witnessing the passion they still have for Harmoc=) The performance started at 7.30pm sharp and Harmoc played a variety of songs, both new and familiar, but nonetheless pleasing to the ear=) They performed the following songs: Tong Hua, La Spagnola, Spirited Away, Happy Farmer, Frosty the Snowman.. I shouted "Encore" out loud and soon the audience followed, being influenced by our enthusiasm the kind emcee requested Mr Tang to conduct for another song again=) Simply felt thrilled when I heard loud applause for NJ Harmoc after the performance.. The seniors made their way to the "backstage" or rather the performers' area to congratulate on their successful performance and express our gratitude for the wonderful night=D Photo-taking sessions took over with much chattering and laughter, which was the undeniable trademark of NJ Harmoc---A family of warmth and love.. Gladys, as the current President of NJ Harmoc, tried to initiate the famous NJ Ya cheer after much persuasion from the seniors (including me, too old for such stuff la as you can see) and the result was simply hilarious haha=P Most of the Harmoc were stunned before reacting to join in the cheer and end Gladys's embarrassment lol.. Hmm maybe the EXCO can include "cheerleading" as one of the main criteria for selecting Presidents in the future hehe=) I departed with much unwillingless after saying goodbye to octave and Mr Song.. The day was long and exhausting but I still enjoyed it every bit=) I am looking forward to the next event or outing with Harmoc already! ^_^
Quote of the Day:
The world will be MUCH better if people learn to hate a little LESS and love a little MORE.
-----gh, aka guy in blues
I used to think that leaving harmoc would spell the end of an exciting phase of my life, but today, my fellow Harmophiles (Harmoc-seeking) had proven me otherwise..
Octave finally had a sectional outing today, and it was fantastic in my opinion=) The octavians met at 11am in AMK bus interchange but I was unable to join them due to an emergency which only Wuzhen and I would know hehe.. We decided to meet up before looking for the rest of the octavians when Wuzhen suggested playing a nice little trick on them.. She told them she would be bringing a friend along and requested them to reserve 2 seats for her when in truth I was supposed to be the mysterious "friend".. I played along with her and informed Jamie that I wasn't going, citing the following as my reason: My friend just told me he was rejected by his loved one and harbouring suicidal thoughts, I cant help worrying about him and will visit him instead of going outing.. So sorry.. LOL!! Jamie actually fell for the trick and Wuzhen believed it initially=P Hard to describe their shocked faces when they saw me and Wuzhen entering the restaurant lol.. Took several pictures there, will post it as soon as I receive those photos from Wuzhen=) Went to fly kite afterwards in a park at Ang Mo Kio where I rediscovered my childhood.. The Guo-s (Guorong and Guo Hui) invented an unique way of playing the see-saw and provided a once-in-a-lifetime experience for the entire octave muahaha.. Visited Jia Neng's house later.. Her dog (with the name Brown) is sooo cute! It likes to turn round and round, trying to catch its tail and apparently it also obeyed my command when I said "shake hands!" The performers went for a quick shower before we left for Jamie's house.. What I found amusing was that her house contained a whole collection of Pokemon and Digimon figures which I managed to identify them one by one effortlessly=) Yeah I could finally display my vast knowledge of pokemon and digimon, similar to what Zhi Rui did during the Harmoc xmas party.. Its wasn't long before we set off to Dhoby Ghaut for the performance=D
The juniors were busy preparing for the performance at Plaza Singapura and I also helped out by carrying the heavier musical instuments from Mr Song's car boot.. Other seniors arrived shortly and I was glad to see many of the seniors (both J2s and J3s) turn up.. J2s: Angeline, Yi Fang, Shu Lin, Xinying, Guorong, Pei Wen, Wuzhen, Yu Ting and J3s: Shu Fen, Deborah, Elieen, Eugenia, Jiat Sing, Hwee Hwee, Jane, Ting Hui... Matthew was not considered exactly there, he was living in my handphone and listening to the concert at that moment haha.. I believe we can form a strong and supportive Alumni after witnessing the passion they still have for Harmoc=) The performance started at 7.30pm sharp and Harmoc played a variety of songs, both new and familiar, but nonetheless pleasing to the ear=) They performed the following songs: Tong Hua, La Spagnola, Spirited Away, Happy Farmer, Frosty the Snowman.. I shouted "Encore" out loud and soon the audience followed, being influenced by our enthusiasm the kind emcee requested Mr Tang to conduct for another song again=) Simply felt thrilled when I heard loud applause for NJ Harmoc after the performance.. The seniors made their way to the "backstage" or rather the performers' area to congratulate on their successful performance and express our gratitude for the wonderful night=D Photo-taking sessions took over with much chattering and laughter, which was the undeniable trademark of NJ Harmoc---A family of warmth and love.. Gladys, as the current President of NJ Harmoc, tried to initiate the famous NJ Ya cheer after much persuasion from the seniors (including me, too old for such stuff la as you can see) and the result was simply hilarious haha=P Most of the Harmoc were stunned before reacting to join in the cheer and end Gladys's embarrassment lol.. Hmm maybe the EXCO can include "cheerleading" as one of the main criteria for selecting Presidents in the future hehe=) I departed with much unwillingless after saying goodbye to octave and Mr Song.. The day was long and exhausting but I still enjoyed it every bit=) I am looking forward to the next event or outing with Harmoc already! ^_^
Quote of the Day:
The world will be MUCH better if people learn to hate a little LESS and love a little MORE.
-----gh, aka guy in blues
Saturday, December 29, 2007
I have something to say to...
I have something to say to...
I hope this entry title does not freak anyone out like it used to be.. Yup, it is coming soon and I am still preparing for it.. Well, I suppose the end of the year is usually the time for such stuff.. Doesn't matter if you have absolutely no idea on what I am mentioning about, just be patient for a little while longer and you will discover it soon enough=)
I hope this entry title does not freak anyone out like it used to be.. Yup, it is coming soon and I am still preparing for it.. Well, I suppose the end of the year is usually the time for such stuff.. Doesn't matter if you have absolutely no idea on what I am mentioning about, just be patient for a little while longer and you will discover it soon enough=)
Friday, December 28, 2007
Apologies
Apologies
This busy blogger wishes to apologise to his dearest friends for not linking their blogs yet.. He is simply too tied up in job hunting and job reviewing for the moment.. He shall do so when the opportunity arises=)
This busy blogger wishes to apologise to his dearest friends for not linking their blogs yet.. He is simply too tied up in job hunting and job reviewing for the moment.. He shall do so when the opportunity arises=)
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
What Your Name Means
What Your Name Means
You entered: Tan Guo Hui
There are 9 letters in your name.Those 9 letters total to 44There are 5 vowels and 4 consonants in your name.
Your number is: 8
The characteristics of #8 are: Practical endeavors, status oriented, power-seeking, high-material goals.
The expression or destiny for #8:Your Expression is represented by the number 8. The 8 Expression is well-equipped in a managerial sense. You have outstanding organizational and administrative capabilities. You have the potential for considerable achievement in business or other powerful positions.
You can expect to receive the financial and material rewards. You have the skill and abilities to establish or operate a business with great efficiency. You have good judgment when it comes to money and commercial matters, and you understand how to build and accumulate material wealth. Much of your success (or lack of it) may come due to your ability (or inability) to judge character. With the number 8 Expression, you exercise sound judgment in most of your affairs; you are realistic and practical in your approach to business matters.
The positive 8 Expression produces individuals that are very ambitious and goal-oriented. If the 8 energy is not in excess in your makeup, you will no doubt express these traits to some extent. No one has any more energy that a person with the 8 Expression who has a plan laid and is starting to work. No one has any more self-confidence, either. If you are expressing the positive qualities of 8, you are an outstanding manager because you can plan, initiate, and complete projects; you are very dependable and determined.
As it always happens, there can be too much of a good thing. If you have too much of the 8 energy in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes. A negative 8 can be very rigid and stubborn. Ambition sometimes has a way of becoming over-ambition, and you may express an unreasonable impatience with the lack of progress. If your negative side is showing, you may be too exacting, both of yourself and of others. Sometimes this can even becomes a case of intolerance.
The number 8 is very materialistic and also very desirous of status and power. Neither of these drives are inherently negative unless they are taken to an extreme. You must avoid the tendency to strain after money, material matters, status, or power, to the detriment of the other important factors in your life.
Your Soul Urge number is: 22
A Soul Urge number of 22 means: The Soul Urge of the master number 22 is very much that of the master builder. You would like to use your abilities in an important humanitarian undertaking, and have an innate desire is to express the significant power you feel in a concrete manner, as a builder, engineer, diplomat, etc. In some way you want to make a considerable contribution to the world.
The 22 gives a broad, universal outlook with a rather practical and common-sense approach. You have especially high intelligence, with an unusual perception and awareness. This number often denotes a high degree of diplomatic abilities and high ideals. You are a very capable person and you may possess special leadership abilities that you can and should develop. People respect you and recognize your superior foresight and vision.
The negative side of the 22 soul urge is a high degree of nervous energy and a tendency to be very dominating. It is unfortunate that all who possess the urge of 22 do not use its energies to the greatest advantage; but then it should be recognized that these energies are understandably the most difficult to focus and direct.
Your Inner Dream number is: 22
An Inner Dream number of 22 means: You dream of being a master organizer and a builder of monumental projects; of guiding a truly huge endeavor. Your secret fantasy is to think big and imagine what could be done for the world. You may also dream of the huge rewards.
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You entered: Tan Guo Hui
There are 9 letters in your name.Those 9 letters total to 44There are 5 vowels and 4 consonants in your name.
Your number is: 8
The characteristics of #8 are: Practical endeavors, status oriented, power-seeking, high-material goals.
The expression or destiny for #8:Your Expression is represented by the number 8. The 8 Expression is well-equipped in a managerial sense. You have outstanding organizational and administrative capabilities. You have the potential for considerable achievement in business or other powerful positions.
You can expect to receive the financial and material rewards. You have the skill and abilities to establish or operate a business with great efficiency. You have good judgment when it comes to money and commercial matters, and you understand how to build and accumulate material wealth. Much of your success (or lack of it) may come due to your ability (or inability) to judge character. With the number 8 Expression, you exercise sound judgment in most of your affairs; you are realistic and practical in your approach to business matters.
The positive 8 Expression produces individuals that are very ambitious and goal-oriented. If the 8 energy is not in excess in your makeup, you will no doubt express these traits to some extent. No one has any more energy that a person with the 8 Expression who has a plan laid and is starting to work. No one has any more self-confidence, either. If you are expressing the positive qualities of 8, you are an outstanding manager because you can plan, initiate, and complete projects; you are very dependable and determined.
As it always happens, there can be too much of a good thing. If you have too much of the 8 energy in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes. A negative 8 can be very rigid and stubborn. Ambition sometimes has a way of becoming over-ambition, and you may express an unreasonable impatience with the lack of progress. If your negative side is showing, you may be too exacting, both of yourself and of others. Sometimes this can even becomes a case of intolerance.
The number 8 is very materialistic and also very desirous of status and power. Neither of these drives are inherently negative unless they are taken to an extreme. You must avoid the tendency to strain after money, material matters, status, or power, to the detriment of the other important factors in your life.
Your Soul Urge number is: 22
A Soul Urge number of 22 means: The Soul Urge of the master number 22 is very much that of the master builder. You would like to use your abilities in an important humanitarian undertaking, and have an innate desire is to express the significant power you feel in a concrete manner, as a builder, engineer, diplomat, etc. In some way you want to make a considerable contribution to the world.
The 22 gives a broad, universal outlook with a rather practical and common-sense approach. You have especially high intelligence, with an unusual perception and awareness. This number often denotes a high degree of diplomatic abilities and high ideals. You are a very capable person and you may possess special leadership abilities that you can and should develop. People respect you and recognize your superior foresight and vision.
The negative side of the 22 soul urge is a high degree of nervous energy and a tendency to be very dominating. It is unfortunate that all who possess the urge of 22 do not use its energies to the greatest advantage; but then it should be recognized that these energies are understandably the most difficult to focus and direct.
Your Inner Dream number is: 22
An Inner Dream number of 22 means: You dream of being a master organizer and a builder of monumental projects; of guiding a truly huge endeavor. Your secret fantasy is to think big and imagine what could be done for the world. You may also dream of the huge rewards.
Hmm interesting description... Haha for those interested in finding the meaning behind your name, here's the link:
http://www.paulsadowski.com/Numbers.asp
Monday, December 24, 2007
Welcome
Welcome
To my closest buddies, dearest friends, other people who may know or may not know me, myself, welcome to this blog. I used to have the perception that blogging is actually a waste of time; yep that opnion still hasn't change, as you can see l have plenty of time to burn lol.. In addition, my experience of life is simply too eventful for me not to write it down somewhere.. But I am not going to describe those unforgettable moments, be it joyous or sorrowful, as I believe one should look forward to the future instead of drowning in the past..
Went to Harmoc x'mas party yesterday evening.. Earlier that day I was still shopping for the gift for the gifts exchange when something really interesting caught my eye.. It was an electronic coaster with a metallic surface which can be connected to the computer via usb to warm your drink while you are surfing the net.. Cool rite? I immediately bought it and met up with my buddies for a couple of drinks.. Afterwards I went home, feeling blur blur and exhausted.. It wasn't long before l fell asleep and to my horror my alarm didnt ring and thus l was late in meeting up with the harmoc people at Kovan! Paiseh=X Yup continue with the story.. When I met up with the juniors I was greeted by another unpleasant surprise----The J2 guys all pang seh me!!! None of them went.. I still thought Matthew would go *winks* but luckily the juniors were still as funny as ever, with intriguing
abbreviations like BJ aka Boon Jin, denny whining for another guy to accompany him to the gents and zhi rui aka rattata showing off his knowledge of chinese names of ALL the mrt stations in singapore lol.. Felt abit younger with those guys, the difference between a 17 year old and 18 year old is really huge.. We started walking towards gladys house after most of the people had arrived and suddenly saw a kindergarden named "Catholic Kindergarden", questions such as these began popping up in my mind---"Is it a boys' sch?" "Anyone frm there who went to cat high pri, sec and finally, jc?" "Do they teach the boys there to be gentlemen of high integrity, robust character, passionate about life, learning and service to others?" This showed that the propaganda by our Mr Lee was successful lol.. We reached gladys house shortly and started our party.. Right here l have something to clarify.. I wasn't emo-ing when l was sitting at the corner and looking up to the sky!! I was merely performing a magic trick to bear bear which required me to turn my back to him!! Okay enough for that.. By the way her house was really cosy.. to the extent that l fell asleep on the sofa in her basement! Perhaps not sleeping on the night before contributed to my weariness too.. The food was okay, with special highlight on zhi rui's wonderful cheesecake.. Hope the girls would never discover what the guys did with the cake hehe, if not we would be in deep trouble.. Played some games later and some unlucky ppl had to wear disgusting stuffs on their faces, yucks.. Finally the gifts exchange.. A big thank you to Jasmine for your cool gift=) Went home quickly after the party to catch the tv program featuring wuzhen and her life story.. Saw Kiat Sheng on my way home and he shared his experience in the army with me.. I enjoyed the conversation, especially "caressing" his bald head lol.. Maybe I shouldn't work so hard to pass my napfa test (especially pull-up) so I could join them instead of rotting in Singapore haha.. Managed to watch the show later and was inspired by wuzhen's positive attitude towards life and happiness in being ordinary=) You made me realise that achieving happiness is really simple.. But on how to achieve that is another complex issue.. Anyway, proud to have you as part of the big harmoc family and as a friend=)
Couldn't sleep that night again.. perhaps I am evolving into some kind of nocturnal human.. fyi mammoth's a prehistoric animal thats already extinct.. and I got a book on evolution from my sis as christmas present after she caught me watching the "Walking with" series on youtube lol.. maybe that can help me explain the kind of evolution which I am going through right now.. I am fine with being another spiderman or cyclops haha.. thanks sis=) Dear readers out there, continue to expect more entries as this blogger apparently has tons of time to post many more entries, whether meaningful or just plain crappy and cya the next time!=)
To my closest buddies, dearest friends, other people who may know or may not know me, myself, welcome to this blog. I used to have the perception that blogging is actually a waste of time; yep that opnion still hasn't change, as you can see l have plenty of time to burn lol.. In addition, my experience of life is simply too eventful for me not to write it down somewhere.. But I am not going to describe those unforgettable moments, be it joyous or sorrowful, as I believe one should look forward to the future instead of drowning in the past..
Went to Harmoc x'mas party yesterday evening.. Earlier that day I was still shopping for the gift for the gifts exchange when something really interesting caught my eye.. It was an electronic coaster with a metallic surface which can be connected to the computer via usb to warm your drink while you are surfing the net.. Cool rite? I immediately bought it and met up with my buddies for a couple of drinks.. Afterwards I went home, feeling blur blur and exhausted.. It wasn't long before l fell asleep and to my horror my alarm didnt ring and thus l was late in meeting up with the harmoc people at Kovan! Paiseh=X Yup continue with the story.. When I met up with the juniors I was greeted by another unpleasant surprise----The J2 guys all pang seh me!!! None of them went.. I still thought Matthew would go *winks* but luckily the juniors were still as funny as ever, with intriguing
abbreviations like BJ aka Boon Jin, denny whining for another guy to accompany him to the gents and zhi rui aka rattata showing off his knowledge of chinese names of ALL the mrt stations in singapore lol.. Felt abit younger with those guys, the difference between a 17 year old and 18 year old is really huge.. We started walking towards gladys house after most of the people had arrived and suddenly saw a kindergarden named "Catholic Kindergarden", questions such as these began popping up in my mind---"Is it a boys' sch?" "Anyone frm there who went to cat high pri, sec and finally, jc?" "Do they teach the boys there to be gentlemen of high integrity, robust character, passionate about life, learning and service to others?" This showed that the propaganda by our Mr Lee was successful lol.. We reached gladys house shortly and started our party.. Right here l have something to clarify.. I wasn't emo-ing when l was sitting at the corner and looking up to the sky!! I was merely performing a magic trick to bear bear which required me to turn my back to him!! Okay enough for that.. By the way her house was really cosy.. to the extent that l fell asleep on the sofa in her basement! Perhaps not sleeping on the night before contributed to my weariness too.. The food was okay, with special highlight on zhi rui's wonderful cheesecake.. Hope the girls would never discover what the guys did with the cake hehe, if not we would be in deep trouble.. Played some games later and some unlucky ppl had to wear disgusting stuffs on their faces, yucks.. Finally the gifts exchange.. A big thank you to Jasmine for your cool gift=) Went home quickly after the party to catch the tv program featuring wuzhen and her life story.. Saw Kiat Sheng on my way home and he shared his experience in the army with me.. I enjoyed the conversation, especially "caressing" his bald head lol.. Maybe I shouldn't work so hard to pass my napfa test (especially pull-up) so I could join them instead of rotting in Singapore haha.. Managed to watch the show later and was inspired by wuzhen's positive attitude towards life and happiness in being ordinary=) You made me realise that achieving happiness is really simple.. But on how to achieve that is another complex issue.. Anyway, proud to have you as part of the big harmoc family and as a friend=)
Couldn't sleep that night again.. perhaps I am evolving into some kind of nocturnal human.. fyi mammoth's a prehistoric animal thats already extinct.. and I got a book on evolution from my sis as christmas present after she caught me watching the "Walking with" series on youtube lol.. maybe that can help me explain the kind of evolution which I am going through right now.. I am fine with being another spiderman or cyclops haha.. thanks sis=) Dear readers out there, continue to expect more entries as this blogger apparently has tons of time to post many more entries, whether meaningful or just plain crappy and cya the next time!=)
Resurrection
Resurrection
A level 6 Paladin by the name of gh blinks to this blog with the help of a blink dagger and casts his ultimate---Resurrection, thereby bringing this dead blog back to life!
Quotes from a Paladin:
"For my people"
"For my Father, the King"
"In the name of the Light"
A level 6 Paladin by the name of gh blinks to this blog with the help of a blink dagger and casts his ultimate---Resurrection, thereby bringing this dead blog back to life!
Quotes from a Paladin:
"For my people"
"For my Father, the King"
"In the name of the Light"
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